Consumed || Shawn Mendes ||

Tuesday.

I was getting the best sleep of my life when i was awoken by slight knocking on my hotel room door. I turned over to my side and put the light blanket over my head to try to mute out the knocking. Maybe they'll go away. But they didn't, the knocking got a little louder. I let out a loud sigh and i climbed out of the bed and walked over to the door. I waited one more minute hoping they would leave but the knock came again. I opened the door without even bothering to look through the peek hole.

There he stood in a black sleeve shirt and some gym like shorts and his hair pushed back by a workout band? He looked good. But what could he possibly want? What time was it?

"Yes?" I asked in a mild irritated way, rolling my eyes a bit. I wasn't much of a morning person at times. He just raised his eyebrows and he looked me up and down and then he seemed uncomfortable. I quickly looked down and i realized i was only in a shirt that cover just below my privates. Shit! This was embarrassing.

"Oh fuck- hold on!" I practically shouted and closing the door half way as i went to grab my over sized sweater from last night. I quickly pulled it over my body and it helped a bit more. I walked back to the door and he was laughing but his cheeks were a slight pink.

"Sorry, i was just checking and making sure how you where holding up." He said looking shy? no way.

"Um, im okay. embarrassed, but im okay. Thanks. What time is it?"I said.

"A little after 11. I was gonna head down to grab something to eat. would you like to come?" He asked hesitating a little. I looked at him confused.

"Um, sure... let me get dressed. ill meet you downstairs". I said stepping back inside and closing the door behind me in a rush. I then placed the back of my head on the door, closing my eyes and taking slow breaths to calm my racing heart. Shawn Mendes just saw me half naked. Not like it was a big deal, im sure hes seen beautiful bodies in less. Nothing made me different. My subconscious crept in shaking me back to reality. I felt that all to familiar gut punching guilt wash over me. Not today.

I was going to live in the moment today.

After i had took a quick shower and brushed my teeth and applied a small amount of make up, nothing over top more to highlight my natural look, i managed to tame my wild curls enough to do two parted braids going back.

As i looked through my suitcase to find something ton wear, i finally decided on a pink crew neck shirt that slightly showed my midriff , my high waist cream long maxi ruffled flowing skirt and my gladiator sandals. I decided after breakfast or brunch i would go sight seeing, i still needed to figure out how i was going to get tickets for tonight's show.

I really needed to work on my impulsiveness. When i got on the plane i was supposed to handle all that while flying but faith decided differently.

I quickly snapped out of my own thoughts, and i grabbed my bag and made sure i had everything i needed and headed towards the door.

I got down to the lobby and i looked for the diner or restaurant, i then realized i didn't even know what i was looking for. As i kept looking around trying not to look as lost i felt, i saw the bodyguard and he saw me and gave a forced smile? I half waved standing looking like an idiot. Where was Shawn? I asked myself , but i saw the crowd of fans outside the huge glass window. I quickly saw his head moving through the crowd taking picture after picture. I dont know how does that so effortlessly. I turned to walk in the direction of the front desk , i reached the desk and asked the male receptionist where the restaurant was he gave me the easy directions to the back of the first floor and at the end there was a small like cafe. I thanked him and he gave me a warm smile before returning to what he was doing.