His Glimmer Of Hope

Chapter 28

It is late afternoon and after lots of considerations, Jaylen decided to see what people are commenting on the photo. When he went to Kujo's social media, he clicked open the post and opened up the comment section. His eyes widened as he saw tons of hate and snarky comments on the posts. As he scrolled through the comments, the more his glass heart is breaking, as most of those comments are meant for him.

Tears soon rolled down his eyes as he exits the app, feeling the numbness taking over, the numbness he knew all too well. Soon, his phone vibrated, a message notification popped up but he ignored it since he doesn't feel like interacting with anyone, even if it is from Kujo. He kept laying on his bed, tears rolling down his cheeks, staining his cheeks.

After two hours, he finally calmed down, grateful that he didn't do any self-harming. *Guess.. I am in control more than before?* He wondered in his mind. His phone vibrated again for the umpteenth time. Thinking that he is okay now, Jaylen unlocked his phone and saw a few messages from Kujo and two messages from Kyle, the other notifications are Kujo's social media updates.

Even though he knew his heart is still hurting and dark thoughts still shrouded his head, he decided to respond to Kujo. "Jay, are you okay? I just noticed those comments." Kujo's first message came in the afternoon. "Jay, i'm sorry for hurting you.. I would have never thought that my fans would react that way." Kujo's second message came half an hour after his first message. "Jay, please respond. I'm sorry.. I never meant to hurt you. I'm worried about you." Kujo's third message came an hour later after his second message. "Jay.. Baby.. I love you. I'll be waiting for your reply." His last message came not long ago.

*I made Kujo worried..* Jaylen thought in his head and he started feeling guilty. He took a deep breath and texted back Kujo. "Kujo, sorry.. I was taking a nap." Jaylen half lied. "I saw those comments and.. I half-expected that they would react that way since i am also a fan of yours afterall." Kujo texted it and opened up Kyle's messages, which are encouraging messages. "Thanks Kyle. You are the best." Jaylen replied to Kyle as a small smile appeared on his face.

He then opened up those notifications on Kujo's social media updates and he saw how Kujo protected him, making him feel touched and a warm feeling creeping into his heart, making him feel slightly better than before. *Thanks Kujo.* He thought in his head as he liked all of the updates Kujo made. 

Before long, his phone vibrated in his hand, showing a reply from Kujo. "Jay baby, i'm so glad you replied. I already handled most of those hate comments and tried limiting the people who can comment on my posts so i hope it helps a little with what is going on now and probably will still continue for awhile in the future." Kujo's replied. "So.. Did you sleep well? I hope those comments won't really impact you alot." Another message came soon after, sounding genuinely worried.

That message put a smile on Jaylen's face, feeling how protective and genuine Kujo is. "I had a good nap. Thanks :)" Jaylen answered back. "I hope you don't stress yourself over this issue too. I think it will die down soon enough." Kujo added and sent a heart emoticon to Jaylen, making him blush. "Shall we meet next weekend? If you are free, that is." Kujo texted to Jaylen. Jaylen sighed, knowing he couldn't fake a smile properly when he is feeling like this, he decided to reject Kujo, despite the overwhelming urge of wanting to meet him.

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Quote #27:

"We sometimes think we want to disappear but all we really want is to be found."