A month has passed and Jaylen's depression worsen as the days passed by. Even though Kujo has tried his best to decrease the amounts of hate and negative comments, his effort has gone in vain as those comments just kept appearing non-stop. Although Kujo's fans tried to protect them as well, it is just hard to manage.
Jaylen's other cause for his depression would be his own negative thoughts and the loneliness he is feeling. Despite his immense urge of wanting to see Kujo, wanting to hug him, wanting to feel his warmth, Jaylen had controlled himself and rejected all their meet-ups since he doesn't want to worry Kujo.
This one whole month is simply a torture to Jaylen and his whole body has become numb to the pain. The cuts has even escalated beyond his wrists. Jaylen sighed as he got up from his bed with effort since even moving his body seems like a hard a thing to do. With his eyes puffy from all the crying, he has wringed out all the tears from his eyes.
His hand reached out for a bottle of sleeping pills he got from his psychiatrist in the past. Despite how the pills look, it is three times, if not, four times stronger than those sleeping pills people get from over the counter pharmacy. With his eyes showing emptiness, like he is dead on the inside, he swallowed almost three-quarter of pills from the whole bottle, which was full a few moments ago.
Since the pills have to take at least a few minutes for it to have effect, he put on his casual, slightly oversized sweater and his baggy pants. In that state he is in, he dragged himself out of the door and walked towards the road which is nearest to his apartment. While walking, the pills started taking effect and with his mind going in and out of consciousness, he stood still in the middle of the busy road. A loud honk could be heard and instead of going to the pavement, his eyes closed as his body became limp, slowly collapsing to the hard concrete road.
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Quote #28:
"When you suffer from depression, "I'm tired" means a permanent state of exhaustion that sleep doesn't fix."
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His Glimmer Of Hope
RomanceA 22 years old male, Jaylen, who is suffering from depression and loneliness, finally meets the one through an online dating app. As they slowly get closer through texting for a long time, the male slowly knows more and more about Jaylen. Will the m...
