Arranged (A Lams FanFic)

Chapter 7

Alexander's P.O.V
After the fight with John I felt like a huge dick. We haven't even been married for that long and we're already fighting. But we fought over something that needed to be talked about so it wasn't that bad. Right? "Hey I'm heading out to the grocery store. Do you need anything?" John asked. He looked nice. Skinny jeans and a nice blue button up. But John looks good in everything so there's that. "No. I'm good." I tell him. "Bye Babycakes." John said giving me a quick kiss. He walked out and then it was just me. Our parents bought us a pretty big house. Even though only two people would be living here. They said they would pay for it until we graduated from college. But if I'm being honest I'm not ready for college. Sure I love learning but I'd rather take a break from school. I know what your thinking. 'Alex no way, you're taking a break!?!?' Why yes young fan girls, I am. When I get to into learning I tend to put that before anything else. But now that I have John he comes before everything. In a way being married has changed me. I used to flirt with anyone and anything. One time when I was drunk I flirted with a house plant. But if I'm being honest I only flirted a bunch to get John to notice me. But one day I stopped flirting and found an interest in Eliza. She was beautiful. Still is. And she was unbelievably sweet. She could make anyone smile and we dated for a bit. But I soon realized I didn't love her. I loved the idea of being in love. But I didn't know how to break the news to her. So I stayed with her until it was time for John and I to get married. And now that we are married I feel responsible for keeping him safe. We made a promise to each other and I intend to keep that promise. "James!" I hear someone yell from outside. I look outside and see Francis run up to a man. I recognized him from school. James Reynolds or something like that. They seemed close. Closer than normal best friends close. Guess I don't have to worry about him and John doing the do. I see John's car pull into our driveway and I get up and help him with the groceries. "Hey Peaches." I say taking the bags from him. "You don't have to take those." He says slipping his arm in mine. "I want to." I say with shrug. "So, what did you do while I was gone?" He asked. "I actually wanted to talk to you about something." I say setting the groceries in the kitchen. "I'm all ears." He said sitting down at the island. "You know how our parents are paying for our house until we're done with college right?" He nods. "Well I was thinking about taking a break. For about a year it won't be long. I just don't want to put my work before you." I rambled. "You're going to give up school?" John asked a bit confused. "Well, yes. But not forever! I just don't want to get caught up in school work." I explained. "Alexander I don't want you to give up school. I know how much your education means to you. And what happens after I'm done with college and you're not? With a big house like this both of us will have to work." He reasoned. "I understand that but I don't think school is the best thing for me right now." I said. "Okay but you not going to school isn't the best thing for our future." He said slowly. "John this is my future." I remind him. "But now that we're married it isn't just your future. Our futures have become one future." He says standing up. "But we both have separate paths to take." I say my voice raising. "True but our separate paths will cross and we'll be on this journey together." His voice matching my volume. "John don't worry about what in doing, okay? I'll go to school when I'm ready. I don't need you to help me make my own decisions." I say walking away. "Alex now that we're married we make decisions together." He says following me. "Maybe we are married. But the thing about marriage is I don't need you every step of the way!" I yell. "Why won't you let me help? I have a say in this too!" He yells back. "Just stay in your lane, alright?!" I yell. And with that he grabs his car keys and heads towards the door. "Where are you going?" I ask. "I'm just going for a drive." He growls. "Not right now John." I say grabbing his wrist. "Don't touch me." He spits. "John you can't drive right now. You're not in the right state of mind." I tell him. "So you want to get a say in what I do, but as soon as I try and tell you what I think you want to shut it down?" He questions me. I sigh and close my eyes. "John this isn't about making decisions in life. This is about me not wanting you to get hurt." I tell him. "Alex just let me take a drive." He growls. "Not right now." I say. I grip his wrist harder as he tries to leave. "Alex let me go right now!" He yells. "John-" "Let me go right now!" He yells again. I push him away from me. He lands on the ground with a thud. "You bastard!" He yells getting up to push me back. I grab his arms as he struggles to push me back. "John stop." I say squeezing his arms. He winces but doesn't stop trying to push me. "John!" I yell. "Fuck you!" He yells tears streaming down his face. We're both silent. A The only thing you can hear are John's quiet sobs. "Let me go." He whispers. I let go of his arms and he runs upstairs. I hear the door slam. What the fuck are you doing Alexander? I think to myself.