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You sighed and shook your head as Chibs asked you the same question he had been asking you for the past 4 months. "(y/n) why can't we just get married? I love you, you love me, what is the problem?" he asked sounding exasperated. You had been telling him it was because you were afraid of marriage but you'd decided you had enough and that you should just come out with the truth. "Chibs I won't marry you because you're already married!" you yelled, whipping around to face him. What had started as a quiet conversation between you two was now quickly escalating and you were pretty sure everyone in the clubhouse knew it too because they quickly cleared out. "(y/n) you know that the only reason Fiona and I are still married is so that people know not to hurt her and Kari-Anne." he said, speaking to you as if you were dumb. You felt your temper flare inside of you and before you knew it you were letting words that you had been containing for months spew from your mouth. "Oh really Phillip?! Is that why you were all over her while we were in Belfast?! Or how about you two doing it in the bathroom of that truck stop when she was in town?! Huh?! Was that just to 'protect them'!? You screamed. You saw his face contort in anger and confusion. "Lass you and I weren't even together when Fiona and I got together and as for what happened in Belfast, I'm sorry I was trying to protect my daughter! Next time i'll just let Jimmy O slit their throats!" he yelled getting in your face. "Phillip don't play that card with me! The real reason I don't want to marry you is because you're already married and I honestly am starting to doubt if you love me more than her!" you yelled, realising that you had let your secret slip the moment you said it. His eyes widened and he tried to place his hand on your face but you quickly turned and walked out of the clubhouse, hopping on your bike and tearing out of the lot. You needed to go for a drive before you let anything else slip that you knew you'd regret. You realised that you had just told Chibs you doubted his love for you ,which was true, you didn't feel nearly as important to him as Fiona and Kari-Anne were. You got that they were his family before you were even around but sometimes you felt like he wasn't there with you, almost like he wanted to be somewhere else. So when he asked you to marry him for the first time you declined. You had felt bad at first but then your insecurities started getting to you and now every time he brought up the subject you felt sick to your stomach. Before you even realised where you were going you pulled up in front of Opie and Donna's graves. They were your best friends while they were alive and you just needed someone to talk to so apparently your subconscious led you here. You took a deep breathe and got off of your bike, going to take a seat between the two graves. "Hey guys, sorry I haven't been here that often lately. Things have been a bit busy." you said, feeling a bit guilty. You went on to explain how thing had gotten with the club, and with Jax being president. You then switched to talking about their kids, just for Donna's sake. "So Chibs has asked me to marry him, multiple times, I keep declining." you started, finally letting go what had been on your chest. "I love that man to death and I would love to marry him but I don't think I can do it while I still know that he's married to Fiona."you felt tears gather in your eyes and you quickly wiped them away before the could fall. "I don't know, I just feel like maybe he's only with me because he can't be with them. Like he's settling for me." you said, your voice cracking. Some of the things that were coming out of your mouth were things that you'd never even admitted to yourself and it was heartbreaking. You knew if Donna was here she would smack you upside the head and tell you that you needed to talk to Chibs about this. You tossed this idea around for a minute before deciding that it was the right thing to do. You pushed yourself up from the ground and placed a kiss on each of their headstones, whispering a quiet goodbye. *****Time Skip***** By the time you got home it was dark, and Chibs's bike was nowhere to be seen. As you got off of you bike and went inside, calling his name, you prayed that you hadn't damaged this relationship. He was nowhere to be found so you went into the bedroom and changed clothes before taking a seat on the couch, waiting for him to come home. Before you knew it your lids were sliding closed and you slipped into a dreamless sleep. ********** You heard the sound of the door closing, causing you to jolt awake and turn towards the form making it's way into the living room. "Chibs?"you said quietly, not knowing where you two stood. "Hey darlin'" he said walking in and taking a .seat next to you couch. It was then that you noticed the thick manilla envelope in his hand. "What is that?" you asked, a bit skeptic of it's contents. He took a deep breath before handing it to you to open. You looked at him questioningly before you opened the package and pulled out the paper you discovered were inside. You read them for a few minutes before gasping and whipping around and looking to Chibs. "You're divorcing Fiona? Chibs what about their protection?"you asked dumbfounded. He looked at you quietly for a moment before taking your hand in his. "I thought about what you said and I realised that now that Jimmy is dead there shouldn't be any problem concerning their safety. I can't promise that there isn't still a part of me that doesn't still love Fiona, she is the mother of my first child, but I don't love her like I love you. This is how I show you that I mean what I'm saying. I already called and talked to Fiona and she agreed to sign the papers, she's ready to move on too." he told you, his gaze never faltering from yours. You didn't know what to say, so you didn't say anything, you just threw your arms around his neck and pulled him close to you. "Thank you Chibs, I know this was hard for you and I feel a bit bad-" "No Lass, don't feel bad. I did this because I want to prove that my heart belongs to you now. I did this because I want to spend the rest of my life with you." he said leaning in and placing a sweet kiss on your lips. "There's a question I need to ask you, though." he said, the seriousness back in his voice. "What is it?" you asked getting a little worried. That was until he got up off the couch an and knelt down in front of you and pulled out the ring you had seen only once before, the one that had belonged to his mother. It blew your mind that he pulled that out because all of the other times he proposed he didn't have a ring. "(y/f/n) (y/l/n), will you do me the honors of spending the rest of your life with me?" he said beaming up at you. You were so happy that you had tears in your eyes when you smiled at him and said "Yes Phillip, I'd love to." He slid the ring on your finger and pulled you off the couch, kissing you deeply and spinning you in a circle. "Damn lass, it feels so good to know you're finally mine for good." he said setting you down and kissing you again. "I'm yours and only yours. I love you Phillip." "I love you too lass."
