TGLES #2 : Belong To Me

Chapter 11 - What Should I Do

Caleb Lemiere

Landed on New York 10 minutes ago and I decided to go straight home because I don't want to take too much attention by appearing on a street just because I want my favorite pizza besides my family already waiting for me at home.

It's been 5 years since I left. It feels weird to be in New York again to be honest. I looked out the window and I haven't told any of my friends, I just told my dad and being a weird dad he is.. he told my mom right away.

My family visited me once in a month so.. they're not completely out of my life but I haven't see others. I miss all of them.

I wonder.. how is Serena doing?

There's not a day that I've never think about her. She's always on my mind until I can't even look at any other woman but the question is.. am I forgiven yet?

When I arrived home, I got out from the car and stood in front of my door. I opened it and walked inside.

"Surprise!" Everyone shouted at the same time. I smiled and they all hugged me.

"Thank God.. or else I will drag you here." My mom cried.

"Miss you lil' bro.." Chase said and I gave him a big bro hug.

"Let's go eat.. I'm so starving." Athena dragged me to the dining room.

"Welcome home son and no more moving out of the house except you're getting married." My dad said and I nodded chuckling. We ate steak for dinner and after that I took a shower. I dried myself and walked to see the view from the big window in my room. I took a really deep breath when suddenly there's a knock on the door.

"Come in." I said.

"Hey honey, bring this for you so you can sleep well tonight." My mom brought me my favorite lavender therapy humidifier.

"Thanks mom." I said and she walked to me.

"I'm so glad that you're back." She said and I hugged her once again. She looked at me and smacked my arm hard.

"5 years.. I can't believe you!" She said and I just smiled because I can't comment anything about it.

"There's an event tomorrow, do you want to go? Or maybe you want to wait?" My mom asked and I actually don't know how to answer that. A part of me is ready to see Serena but another part of me still a little bit scared.

"If you're thinking about Serena, I think she already forgave you. It's been 5 years, Caleb." My mom said and I sighed.

"I miss her so much but I can't just go to her and hug her, I bet she will kick my balls." I said a little bit worried.

"I think she misses you too and I bet she will not expect you to come." My mom said and I nodded.

"How is she?"

"She's doing fine but Autumn said that she's a little bit different ever since you left. She never even have a boyfriend." My eyes widen when my mom said that. I raised my eyebrows and looked at my mom seriously. Is she lying?

"She has zero boyfriend.. unless you have a girlfriend that I don't know about back in Canada." My mom looked at me narrowing her eyes to me.

"No.. I don't. I never date anyone there." I said truthfully. I mean.. how can I date someone else when Serena is stuck on my mind? I can't date in peace.

"Good and.. just go to tomorrow's event. Talk to Serena." My mom said and I nodded. She kissed my cheek and walked out from my room. I sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at the ground blankly. Am I ready to see her tomorrow? Gosh.. I missed her.

Next day..

I looked at myself at the mirror and yes it's been 30 minutes since I'm debating with myself whether should I go or not.

"Caleb!! We're late!!" My sister knocked on my door and I took my suit and walked out from my room. I walked down and got into the car with Isaac.

"She's already there if you're wondering." He said in a teasing tone and I looked at him glaring.

"Just saying.." He chuckled and I gestured him to go and he drove his car. I kept looking out the window with nothing inside my head. My brain blanked for awhile.

"Caleb.. we're here." Isaac said as he patted my thigh. I nodded and got out the car. I let my family go first and I walked behind them.

"Caleb!" Declan and Noah saw me first. They walked to me and gave me a big hug. After that, all of them came to me to hug me and asked me how I was doing back in Canada. I felt so happy to be back with all of them. I looked around and can't spot Serena. Of course, she won't come to me. After talking for awhile, I tried to find Serena but she's not inside the venue.

"She's outside." Isaac said and I patted his shoulder thanking him. I told everyone to just give me time and I will talk to them later. I walked out from the venue and found Serena walking to the car trying to go away.

"Serena." I called and she turned to me slowly. Oh God, I missed her so much until it hurts. All I want to do that second was to hug and kiss her but I bet she will hate me more. My heart was beating crazily when I saw her and she's still beautiful as ever. She got skinnier and her hair is longer.

"Listen asshole! Do you think by disappearing for 5 years.. I will be okay once you appear again?" She bursted angrily at me after trying to make a conversation with her. I mean she's right, she's not okay. She still hates me with all her heart.

"No.. I know that you won't be okay, Serena." I answered because I predicted her reaction way almost everyday.

"Yeah.. I'm not okay! I got crazy!" She added as she opened the car door.

"Sorry." That's the only word that came out from my mouth because I don't have any other vocabulary to express what I want to say. In this position, I don't want to step forward and I don't want to step backwards either. I don't want to make a move because I'm afraid that I will hurt her but I don't want to back off either because I might lose her forever. I think I need to keep this.. distance.

What should I do now?