Loving Spade

Chapter 16: Conflicts

Race's POV

"Do you like her? To the point you spend a bilions for her?" shit I can't control my emotion.

"Listen Race I need her, because--"

Slap!

Thats it! Knowing that he needs someone other than me really hits me. There is a pang of pain on my chest. It made me realized that I cannot give him everything. There are things that he needs that I cannot give a MAN like me.

"I'm breaking up with you" kahit ako nagulat sa sinabi ko. Fuck this. I didn't mean it. Gusto kong bawiin, but whats the point?

I saw his expression darkened. I know he is mad. I wanted to say sorry.. Pero bakit naman ako magsosorry? It is not my fault. I caught him buying a woman! And it step on my ego.

"Aww S-spade!" pilit kong hinihila ang kamay ko. Hila hila niya ako ngayon. Mahigpit ang hawak niya sakin. Sumakay kami sa elevator and I didn't dare to speak and he also didn't talk. Nasalikod niya ako at hawak parin ang isa kong kamay.

Ting

Muli nanaman niya akong hinila palabas. Siguradong namumula na ang kamay ko sa higpit ng hawak niya. Pumasok kami sa isang kwarto, it is a hotel room. I remembered that half of this building is a hotel.

Pagkapasok namin ay hinagis niya ako sa kama.

"What the hell Spade" sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

"I think you forgot that you only belong to me. You can't leave me" hinubad niya ang coat niya. I gulped

"Hinahanap na ako nila Marvin babalik na kami sa dorm" umiwas ako ng tingin sakanya. Tumayo ako, but before I make a step he pushed me again in bed and pinned me.

Sinimulan niyang halikan ako sa leeg. I've tried to push him pero mas malakas tlga siya sakin. He kiss me on my lips and I didn't respond to it. Tumigil na ako sa panlalaban at hinayaan siya kung ano man ang gagawin niya sakin. Bumaba ulit ang halik niya sa leeg ko ang unbotton my shirt.

He didn't care about my feelings. He is such a jerk.

He kissed me roughly on my lips to the point that I tasted my own blood.

Madiin akong pumikit and my tears starting to fall. Binaling ko sa gilid ang ulo ko ng tigilan niya ang paghalik sakin and with my free hand I hide my face with my arm.

I sob then I bit my lower lip to stop making another sound. Naramdaman ko ang sakit ng sugat ko sa labi, but my heart hurts the most.

"Fuck!" I heard him punch the wall of the headboard of the bed.. I don't want to look at him. Natatakot ako na baka ako naman ang suntukin niya.

"Race look at me" malumanay na sabi niya. I didn't move

"please" he plead

"Are you going to punch me too?"

His both hands on my sides. "Stop thinking that I will hurt you. I will never do that to you" tinanggal niya ang pagkakapatong ng braso ko sa mukha ko. He wiped my tears.

"I'm sorry" Pinatong niya ang mukha niya sa leeg ko. "Let me explain. Don't break up with me" buong pagsusumamo niya. He look so helpless. I felt guilty for not listening to his explanation.

Tumango tango lng ako. Umupo siya kaya umupo rin ako.

"Hindi ko pwedeng sabihin lahat" tumingin siya sakin.