Because I had you

Chapter Six

I pushed the door open and walked into the room to see him laid on the bed.

His eyes were closed, a blue machine attached to him along with a blood pressure machine.

I walked over to the chair by his bedside, I sat down and looked at him.

I caused this.

He's in this hospital bed because of me.

I did this.

"K-Kev, I n-nee-"

I cut myself off to see his eyes fluttered open and he looked down at his hand.

"K-Kev?"

"Lana?"

A lump formed in my throat, not knowing how to reply to him right now.

I broke his heart didn't I? And it led to this.

I looked at him and smiled, my eyes brimmed with pools of tears.

He looked at me. He let out a sigh then slowly sat himself up. "L-Lana?"

"Y-Yeah?"

"You shouldn't be here. I'm really sorry about this all."

"I-It's okay."I managed to croak with another smile on my face.

"No it isn't, I've just been an compete dickhead to you."Kevin said as he let out a frustrated sigh. "I've hurt you and I realised that."

My hand touched his other which wasn't bandaged up, I closed my eyes tightly as I took a breath in and let it out.

He picked me up, he twirled me around as I let out a soft chuckle. My hands placed against his cheeks as he stopped.

His deep ocean blue eyes looked into mine, his free hand tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear. "One day we'll be."

"You are saying that now, but we know what happens."

"That isn't going to happen. Just you wait and see, we'll be."

I looked at him and nodded but knowing in my heart, it could never be.

Someone promised that and let me down, he was bound to let me down to.

"Lana? Are you okay?"

I opened my eyes and looked at him, I let out a soft chuckle. "I should be asking you that as you are the one in a hospital bed."

"I'm fine. I'm okay, I'm just worried about you."

"You don't need to be."

"I want to be."

"K-Kev, I can't."

"What do you mean?"

Tears began to trickled down my face as I looked down at his hand. Then I looked up at him.

I looked into those deep ocean blue eyes.

I couldn't fall back into that ocean.

Knowing its toxic for the both of us.