Our History

Chapter 30

Before anything could happen I squeezed my eyes shut and heard two gunshots go off.

After the two shots, my eyes shot open and I feel around my body to see if I have any shot wounds.

My body begins to cheer up as a notice that there are none to be felt.

Then my head shot up to see where Ace was at and my body nearly began to shake with happiness at his lifeless body.

Now Chris and I could live in happiness without worry.

Then I quickly turned to Chris so we could share our new lives together.

At first, I saw Eyeball, he looked lifeless. But what else is to be expected when you have just shot a man.

I almost ran over to him to comfort him, but at the moment I wanted to hug Chris.

We were now free.

But when I looked at Chirs, it wasn't anything that I expected at all.

"Chris..?"

I sat down to his limp body laying before me.

"Chris please don't-"

I cut my self off, putting my hand on his cheek.

Then began feeling for a pulse, he had to be okay.

He shakily put his hand on my arm," Gordie, g-get out of", he took a breath, "This town and write."

"I will Chris, I'll write about you and our love.", I tell him while tears swell up in my eyes.

I didn't wanna cry around him now, I knew these were our last moments. I wanted him to not see me cry

before he died, he didn't deserve that.

He smiled at me, the color leaving his face, "Take care of Lucas, a-and Richard f-for me."

I nodded my head, "I will Chris, I will for you."

I then leaned down and kissed him, he kissed back using the rest of his strength.

"I love you, Gordie"

"I love you too, Chris"

Then he took his last breath and died in my arms.

Leaving this world and me with it.

I didn't know how to feel, I can't feel.

Chris was gone, my world stopped because he was my world. He all I have ever needed and wanted, now he's gone.

I didn't cry, maybe because I couldn't believe he was gone. I couldn't feel emotion, I was just there.

Nothing felt the same, I just stared at his closed eyes and purple lips.

There had only been three other times I have seen a dead body, Dennys, Browers, Ace's and now adding to the list Chris's.

My best friend, gone and in my arms. Lifeless before me

and I wasn't crying, yet I couldn't.

I barely turned my head, showing no emotion I looked at Eyeball who was still holding the fired gun in his hand.

He was just as shocked as me, "Is this how it felt when Denny died?"

He looked at me straight in the eyes, "Can you feel anything inside of you?"

I shook my head, not knowing if I could speak.

"Then yes, that's how it feels."

I didn't wanna let Chris go, a part of me thought Chris was alive and that this was just a terrible dream.

I would wake up any second and Chris would be alive.

We would be free, in love, living in a beautiful house with beautiful children. Me writing and Chris doing whatever the hell he wanted.

We would be happy.

But I sat there for minutes, maybe even hours. Yet Chris never woke up, and neither did I.

"Chris? Please wake up."

I just looked at him and felt my whole body start to shut down.

Just like he did minutes ago.

I'm nothing without him, and all I could feel was the emptiness in my chest.

I heard the footsteps of Eyeball behind me before he sat down next to me.

"I didn't cry for a while after Denny died, I thought I was a monster.", he stops for a second and turned to look at me, "Turns out Denny made my heart stop, and with that, I couldn't feel anything."

I nodded at him, understanding everything that he was saying.

We just sat there for a few more minutes not really knowing what to say before I broke the silence, "When did it stop hurting?"

"Never did, and it never will. But you will learn eventually how to cope.", he says in all honesty.

"Damn Christopher Chambers, I also thought I would go first", Eyeball began while brushing his hand through Chris's hair, "I also thought I would watch you graduate and become something better than I ever would."

Eyeball then stopped talking clearly not being able to.

But there was just another question I was needing to ask him.

"Eyeball?", I looked up and over to him.

He turned to look at me, not wanting to say anything.

"Do- do you think Denny is gonna help Chris on the other side?"

Eyeball than smiled for the first time after his little brother's death, "I know for a fact he will."

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I cried while writing this.

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