Really? // Stenbrough

Chapter 32

Stan's PoV

I hurriedly walked to the losers tree. It was just a tree that we all sat by during lunch, we named it after ourselves. I'm later then usual because I had to stay after in my last class to ask my teacher a couple of questions. When I got closer to the losers, I noticed they were surrounding Eddie as he showed them something.

How much you wanna bet it's Richie's gift to him for their one year.

"Stan!" Eddie yelled when I got closer. I was going to sit down next to Bill, when Eddie jumped up and gave me a bone crushing hug. For someone so small, he sure does have a strong hug.

"Can I help you?" I breathed out. Luckily Eddie noticed my lack of breath and let go.

"Thank thank thank you!" He exclaimed.

"You're welcome?"

I sat down next to Bill and carefully placed my lunch in front of me. It had surprisingly not been crushed by my hug from Eddie.

"I can't believe you'd spend so much time drawing a picture for me." Eddie said.

"Oh, it was nothing." I said shrugging.

Eddie gaped at me. "Nothing? It was not nothing. This picture," He held up the paper of the drawing I made him. "Is not nothing. Richie said you spent like a whole 24 hours working on it."

I looked down and blushed. I didn't exactly like all the attention on me. Ok so maybe I did spend 24 hours on that drawing, but it's just because it had to be perfect. It was for their one year, I had drawn the first time Richie had asked Eddie out, the flying noddles and everything.

"You're welcome." I said finally.

Eddie, satisfied, turned back to Richie and began eating. I felt a hand on my knee, belonging to Bill, and him leaning into my ear.

"That was really sweet of you Stan, I love you." He whispered sweetly.

"I love you too." I whispered back.

He removed his hand from my knee and leaned back again. We began eating.

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"What was that for?" I asked Bill after he pulled away from a very passionate and heated kiss.

"Just felt like it." He said glancing behind me. I turned to see his dad at the doorway of the living room. I turned back to Bill who was now focusing back on his homework, just like moments before. Before his dad walked in.

It might just be me, but I feel like Bill has been more touchy and kissy around his family. I think it's because of his dad. I feel like Bill is using me to get back at his dad for leaving. I know Bill loves me, it's just recently he'll only give really passionate or heated kisses only around his dad. Any other kiss is just a peck.
He just needs to talk to his dad. I get that it's hard for him to do that, but he has too. It's been almost two weeks since he has been home.

"Hello Stan." Bills dad said as he sat down in his recliner.

"Hi Mr Denbrough."

"Call me Zach."

I could hear Bill's eye roll. Hear it.

"How was school Bill?" Zach asked.

Bill just continued to silently sit on the coach next to me, doing his homework. I looked over at Mr Denbrough and he was looking sadly at his oldest son. You could tell he didn't know why Bill was acting this way, and it hurt him.

I gave him a sympathetic smile as he looked at me, destroyed. He gave a sad smile before he stood up.

"I'll go see how Georgie's doing on his homework. Nice seeing you again Stan."

"You too Zach." He nodded his head at me before he exited the room.

I turned back to Bill, who was staring intently at his homework. I wrapped my arm around his side and laid my head on his shoulder, except he shrugged me off.

"Not now Stan."

"Why not? You were kissing me just moments ago."

"So? I kiss you whenever and then we just go back doing whatever we were, I want to work on my homework."

"Right, Sorry."

I scooted away from him, letting him do his homework. I can't help but feel hurt. Yeah I know that we sometimes just kiss and a little and that's it, but that is just sometimes. He never pulls away from a cuddle, at least he use to not. Now we practically never cuddle, the last time was when I told him he should talk to his dad, almost a week ago.

Maybe I'm just being self conscious or insecure, but I feel like Bill doesn't want to be with me anymore. Like I said before, he's just using me around his dad. But maybe I'm just being paranoid and this is all in my head.

Bill and I continued to do our homework in silence. Silence, I hated this silence. Usually when we work it's an airy and a free silence, this one has a heavy feeling to it. I hate it. When Bill asked me to help him on a math problem, he seemed a little irritated. He has been irritated lately and I don't know why.

Bill has been different. But not a good different. He's taking his dad being home a little to badly.

"You better get home before Sophia gets pissed." Bill said shutting his history book and I looked at the clock. It's only 7:43, my curfew isn't until 11. But I decided not to push it.

"Ok."

I packed up my things and Bill walked me to the door, like usual. I put on my shoes and my coat before leaning in to kiss Bill goodbye.

Except he leaned back. Hurt quickly flashed through my eyes.

"We don't always have to kiss goodbye." He stated.

"Sorry."

He rolled his eyes. "You don't always have to apologize either."

"Sor-" I cut myself of.

Bill huffed. "Just go home Stan."

"I'll see you tomorrow." I told him.

"Yep." He shut the door after I walked out.

I'm so confused on why Bill is acting this way. I don't know what to do. Is he subtly trying to tell me he don't interested in me anymore? Does he want to break up, but he wants me to break up with him? No, stop thinking like that Stan. You're just being paranoid.

I am just being paranoid, right?

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