✅ Badass Besties// J.M ✅

18

"So what was that about?" Jonah asks referring to what she said

"Oh I'm failing that class with the freshman so she's letting me go into a senior class last period"

"Story writing?"

"Yeah how did you know"

"Oh my friends in that class"

"Wait what. I thought I was your only friend"

"Oh she's a new friend like Daniel is to you. Her names Ellianna"

"Is she replacing me?" I ask pretending to be offended

"Of course not. Plus she's a little more than a friend"

"A best friend!"

"No we kinda are talking" i hate when people say that because you're either dating or not but for the sake of this story I'll deal with it

"Oh since when"

"She's friends with the girl from the party"

"Oh"

So that means she's in between the random girl and me

SO HE HAD SEX WITH ME EVEN THOUGH HES MESSING WITH THIS GIRL. I CANT BELIVE IT

Of course he wouldn't ask me out he's waiting to ask this new girl out. So he used me for sex because he knew I'd say yes. I can't believe it

"So last night. You and her were still you know messing around talking or whatever"

"Yeah"

"Wait you like this girl right"

"Yeah a lot."

"Then what about yesterday"

"Oh that. I figured you wanted to know what it felt like the first time we did it but this time sober. It didn't mean anything I mean remember what we said no feelings"

"I thought that was talking about the first time"

"I mean yeah but doesn't it kind of relate to any time after"

"I guess"

"Exactly so it shouldn't be a problem" he says as we get to class

"Whatever Jonah" I roll my eyes and walk in before him

He catches up and grabs my shoulder

"Are you mad?"

"No I'm not mad id just really enjoy it if you didn't use me for sex"

"Woah I did not use you for sex"

"You just said it yourself Jonah. You literally said it meant nothing. If it means nothing it means you used me to satisfy your sexual needs. So yes Jonah you did just use me for sex"

I sit down in my seat and take out my stuff

"Listen you don't have to be jealous" he says putting his hand over my stuff

"And what am I jealous about exactly Jonah"

"You're just jealous that someone actually wants to be with me and not you. You're jealous that another girl is taking away my attention from you."

"That is so not true"

"Yes it is. You looove my attention so much that you'd accuse me of just using you for sex. If I wanted to 'satisfy my sexual needs' I wouldn't have chosen you to do it with. I would've chosen an actual girl"

"So I'm not an actual girl. Cause I'm pretty sure I have all female parts and I'm pretty sure you can confirm that"

"No an actual girl is pretty and cares about how they look"

"I care about how I look"

"Not like the real girls do. The real girls wear makeup and do their hair pretty and wear cute clothes. But not you"

"You know I thought you were supposed to be my best friend"

"I am your best friend"

"Then why are you saying all of this to me. Two nights ago you were about to fight a guy who said the exact same thing about me. Except what you said is worse"

"Because I'm finally understanding that that guy was right. Maybe if you were actually pretty and dressed like a girl you would have someone to be with like I have Ellianna"

"It's really funny how one day you could be calling me beautiful and perfect and the next you could be calling me the total opposite"

"I was just trying to make you feel better about yourself because no one will be calling you beautiful anytime soon"

"And how do you know that exactly"

"Oh please your dad didn't even think you were"

"What does my dad have to do with this"

He bends down in front of my face and I shiver

"Maybe if his daughter looked and acted like a girl he wouldn't have to cheat on his wife just so he could leave his daughter for someone else's who is actually pretty" he stands back up and sits in his seat

I feel a tear roll down my cheek and I stand up walking out of the class

"Cara! Where are you going class is starting!" My teacher calls out to me

"I can't be in that class with him I just can't. I need to go to the bathroom"

"Okay But please come back after!"

I turn around and walk to the bathroom

When I get to the bathroom I lock myself in a stall and cry

I can't believe he would say that to me. He knows how sensitive I am when it comes to my dad. And he especially knows how I feel responsible for what happened.

I mean my dad and my mom loved each other and I saw it even when they were in court for the divorce. In court, my dad looked at my mom lovingly and when he looked at me all I saw was disgust. Even now after the divorce they still text and he helps my mom with bills. But me, nope he practically no he definitely hates me.

I told Jonah all of this in secret and for him to bring it up and use it to make me feel bad about myself is awful

I now know the type of person Jonah is and I no longer trust him.

I stop crying and walk out of the bathroom, I know my face is a red mess but I don't care

I walk back in the room and silently walk back to my desk. I see Jonah look at me from the corner of his eye and when he sees my red-post crying face his own face drops.

I hope he feels bad cause this is what he caused