This might be a real thing between us

Chapter 2

Tingles,
I felt them. They are this soft and gentle secondary effect of a sudden touch, maybe even barely, sometimes just the very edges of tact give of the slightest signal but that's enough to make it count.

Do you feel that tingly feeling too?

You wanted to measure something that even little kids do all the time, you measured our hands.
I saw how they perfectly aligned from the beginning lines of each fold of each finger, I saw the perfect symmetry and shape to align with each others puzzle piece.

When I felt your palm against mine it gave me a tingly feeling. I wanted to smile, my face wanted to show my emotions, the ones I have been fighting to understand since a little before my birthday.
I wanted to show you a slight smile, those smiles that can have a double meaning, the ones that can tell you that there's a mutual feeling or maybe that there's none but that's the double part of it.

Deep inside I could see you smile too. And that made me happy, internally though. I could see the way you looked over, almost as if you were looking for something, perhaps a reaction over a slight affection but I just showed interest. In the end, I do have pretty small hands and that was nothing new or out of the ordinary. If I reacted with such interest may be what I meant was a smile that I couldn't quite show in front of many people because I want it to be something that can stay between you and me.

You know, I have to admit that I actually felt this small feeling to intertwine our fingers. I'm not sure why maybe I just wanted to see how they fit together. Maybe just admire how perfectly well they can hold on to each other and feel almost like one.

To be honest I'm not quite sure about this current emotion. But from now on I'll try to live in the present. Maybe the future has too many mysteries that might be better for an approximate time or date. Currently, you and I are something in discovery. It's a land without people. Just you and me. It's calm and relaxing. At least for now, that's the way things are, I hope they stay like that.