the devil cries

the devil cries ■ chapter ten

I was sitting down on the dining table with the Seven, trying hard not to think about Lucifer and Samyaza. They were actually really nice and I don't wanna spill them. I don't wanna spill their existence to others because that was what they wanted. I don't know what to do.

In front of us, polyaime was served, with all of them looking at it and eating it as if they were really pleasured.

I looked at Jophiel, and she looked really worried. Her brows were furrowed and she looked at me as if I was her daughter and she was really worried about me.

Michael looked calm, yet he had a line of worry shown across his face. Even Gabriel looked like that.

Ariel was eating, staring and talking to Chamuel. They were talking in small voices, and I couldn't get what they were saying.

Raphael had his brows furrowed, staring at me and not even moving his food.

I looked at Azrael. He had an expression as if nothing was wrong. He acted like he didn't care, and for a second, I acted like I didn't care, too. But I do care about him. He was my best friend, even if what happened earlier has happened.

"So, Kassandra. Where were you?" Asked Michael, and I looked down on my lap.

"I was just exploring Divine Realm, I'm sorry," I lied, but I knew that it wasn't a lie. Just partly.

I mean, his place is also a part of this Realm, right? There's nothing wrong with having friends other than the Seven.

"Are you sure? You never went to places that look eerie and... places that look as if they're... scary?" Asked Gabriel, and I shook my head.

Another lie.

"No. I'm just around," I said, and they all slowly nodded.

"You, Azrael of Death, what made you think you can just take Kassandra with you without taking precautions? You should have thought that you'd lose her!" Said Michael, his voice dripping with authority.

Everyone fell silent, and stopped chewing their food. I looked at Azrael, and he spared me a glance before looking straight back to Michael.

His expression was stone hard, but as I looked into his eyes, I knew that there was something wrong.

His eyes held an emotion that I couldn't decipher, but I guessed that it had a hint of guilt and something else. Who was Lilith to him, anyway? What made him do things and what made him forget he was on duty? Did this thing happen everytime? With her?

"I didn't know." Azrael said, and never spoke again.

"You don't know what?" Asked Jophiel, and Azrael didn't speak.

I was starting to feel some kind of tension between every single one of them here, and I felt guilty. I felt guilty that I even showed up in their place and became a part of their life. Maybe their life was better before I showed up.

"AZRAEL! You don't know what?!" Asked Michael, and I flinched.

I felt Jophiel put her hand on top of mine, trying to calm me down, but I couldn't. I couldn't at all. I could feel my tears building up, because they were blaming Az even if I knew that if I wasn't here, nothing like this would happen.

"I didn't know Lilith will show up, okay?! I didn't know she would come see me again, I didn't know just hearing a single word from her would make me come rushing back! It's been a thousand years since I last saw her! Consider me, too, oh so good He Who Is As God. All you think about is other people. What about us?" Exclaimed Azrael, making me drop a tear.