I woke up in pain. Literally.
It felt like dinaanan ako ng pison dahil buong katawan ko ang nananakit.
Pagkabukas ng mata ko, nahihilo ako. Blurred at nakalutang ang pakiramdam ko. I started crying.
"Shhhh... Gia... It's me TJ... Ate... pakitawag na yung nurse. Gising na sya."
I suddenly felt secured nang marinig ko ang boses nya, pero ang labo ng paningin ko kaya hindi ko sya makilala. He's right beside me on my left.
"Shhh... kalma. Everything is alright. Nakasemento ang left leg mo and you are wearing cervical brace. You got head bandage. You had concussion."
Hindi ako makapagsalita. May nakalagay sa bibig ko na nakatuloy hanggang sa lalamunan ko. Nasusuka din ako dahil dun.
"You got into an accident. You were driving home. Nasa tamang lane ka and tamang signal when suddenly 2 SUVs beat the red light pero sumablay sila pareho, nabangga ka ng isa as you were crossing the intersection. Nang magkabanggaan kayo, yung isa naman nakabuntot sa naunang bumangga sayo kaya nagakarambola kayo."
I feel his hand caressing my hair lightly.
"When they got you here in the hospital, you had brain hemorrhage, a rib punctured your liver, your left leg got stuck, your back was in bad shape due to the strong impacts of the 2 cars that hit you." his voice is shaky at the moment, mas lalo akong naiyak. Kaya pala ganito ang pakiramdam ko ngayon.
"Your co-doctors performed the surgery and..." then I heard his voice cracking.
"Nagkaproblema kalagitnaan, but they did everything to save you. You were in a coma for 7 days after the surgery. You are currently here in ICU." He is crying. I felt him leaning on my arm.
"I'm sorry Gia if I was not there." he continued.
Then I heard the door opened and it felt like a lot of people came in.
"Gianna... si Mariz to, kasama ko si Cindy. Check ka namin ha!" It's Mariz from Surgery department, and Cindy is my consultant.
I felt them doing things on my body. They're taking vitals.
"She's healing. But we have to get her MRI checked again plus the blood workup." it was Mariz' voice.
"Gia... magpalakas ka ha." this time it's Cindy.
They had conversations pa pero hindi ko na nasundan. Maraming sinabi sila Mariz and Cindy na hindi ko na din maintindihan.
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A week has passed and inilipat na nila ako sa Suite. This is my first time to feel comfort. Wala na ang mga makina na nakakabit sakin at oxygen at dalawang machine na lang ang nakakabit sakin at swero.
My parents are with me today and wala si TJ, I don't know where he went.
I saw myself at the mirror for the very first time today. I look awful. May mga pasa pa ako onti pero may bandage pa din ako sa ulo. My arm and my leg is still in a cast. no
