TRIGGER WARNING
Your POV
No one cared. No one would notice if I was gone. So many people had left hate lately, I hated myself for it. The only person who would care would be San. I cried at the thought of leaving San alone. I had no choice. No one cared. I grabbed San's razor box and locked myself in the bathroom. I heard my phone go off in the other room, which only made me cry more.
I dragged the razor against my thighs. I cut until there was no more room. "I'm so sorry San, I'm sorry i'm not good enough for the world." I thought to myself with each slit. I moved up to my arms and cut my wrists and below my shoulders. Blood was everywhere, on the floor, on my shirt. I cried so more from the pain. "Y/N?" I hear San shout. I moved over to the corner.
"Y/N open the door!" San yells. He jiggles the door, but I locked it so he couldn't get in. I hear San walk away and I let my arms go limp and hit the floor. Everything hurt, my arms, my thighs, my heart. I hear the doorknob unlock and San stands in the doorway. "Y-Y/N? Why?" San asks. He comes over to me and I try to push him away. My arms and legs were still bleeding.
"San, you shouldn't have to see me like this." I tell him and push him away. "I'm going to get blood on you!" I say and cry more. "Y/N I don't care about that! I care about you." San tells me. San tries to take the blade, but I keep it away from him. San grabs it out of my hand and puts it on the counter. I cry more from him seeing me. "San, i'm so sorry." I sob. "Y/N, it's okay." San says and hugs me.
San picks me up and carries me out of the bathroom. "San, put me down." I whine. "Your going to lose a lot of blood if I don't help you." San explains. He sets me on the kitchen counter and brings out the medic kit. "San i'm so sorry." I sob. "Shh baby." San wipes away my tears and picks my wrist up. I wince at his touch. "This is going to hurt babe." San warns and puts rubbing alcohol on the cuts. I inhale sharply.
"I'm sorry babe." San says and wraps gauze around it. He wraps my upper arm and does the same to my other arm. "I'm sorry San. I truly am." I whisper as he wraps my thighs. "Babe, don't worry about it. If your sad just tell me and I will drop everything to come and be with you." San explains. I smile and stroke his face.
"San, have I ever told you how much I love you?" I ask. "No no you have not." San says and kisses me. I smile and tears start to flow again. "I don't deserve someone like you." I whisper. San hears it and wipes my tears away. "You deserve the world." He tells me. San finishes wrapping my leg and picks me up.
I put my arms around his neck and bury my face into his chest. "Thank you San." I say. San sits in a chair and I sit in his lap. San rocks back and forth and I feel safe in his arms. "I love you, Choi San." I whisper. San kisses the top of my head and whispers "I love you too, Y/N L/N." I fall asleep in his arms. "Thank you."
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