Citrus and Wine | Jung Jaehyun

Chapter 14

After a few weeks of you becoming friends with Mark, Jaehyun started going out more. Specifically, on the days Mark came over. Today was no exception, Jaehyun heard Mark's voice fill the apartment at around 6pm.

Jaehyun rolled his eyes and grabbed his jacket, walking toward the front door.

"Hey Jae, do you-" the loud thump of the door shutting Mark up. He didn't want to hear him.

'He probably already told her about Johnny and it's trying to get inside her pants.' He scoffed and got inside his car, driving to the nearest bar. Yes, every day for two weeks he's been getting drunk and messing around with girls, because even though he said he was going to let you go he still thought about you, especially while fucking other girls.

He couldn't help but picture you beneath him, while he took you the way he wanted. He wanted nothing more than to hear you moaning his name and screaming for him to fuck you harder. He let the hard taste of liquor go down his throat, placing the cup on the counter, asking for another round.

"Sir, we're about to close." The bartender said.

"Already? I just got here." Jaehyun said.

"You've been drinking for a whole hour."

"Oh. Okay, I will leave." Jaehyun was not drunk, but he was a little tipsy. He took a cab home, putting a reminder on his phone to pick up his car tomorrow.

Jaehyun made way to his apartment, a bouquet of flowers laying on the floor in front of the door. He opened the door and saw you sitting on the couch crying your heart out, a bottle of his favorite wine on your hand. He does not know what came through him, but he ran to you and hugged you, your face going straight to his chest.

"Hey, it's okay." He said and stroked your hair gently. "Don't cry for him, it's not worth it."

"I am so stupid, Jaehyun told me to stay away and I didn't listen." You sobbed as you held tightly to his arms, dampening his shirt with your tears. "he must be happy right now."

"Hey, you're not stupid, and I doubt Jaehyun would be happy to see you like this." He held you close as you cried, shushing you softly, trying to calm you down.

"Everyone leaves all the time, and I always end up in the same place." You said. "I always give my all too soon, I deserve this."

This broke Jaehyun's heart into a thousand pieces, seeing you like this and hearing you bring yourself down for something he said when he was angry, was agonizing.

"You don't deserve to be miserable, y/n," he whispered.

"Yes, I do, I make myself miserable." You sobbed. "Jaehyun was right, I deserve all of this, no wonder he hates me." Except he doesn't. he doesn't hate you, he just doesn't know how to approach you.

"Don't say that," he said softly. "Look at me." You had been so consumed in crying that you didn't even notice who was holding you, you just assumed Mark had come back. You wiped your tears and looked up. Jaehyun smiled sadly and leaned in to kiss your forehead.

"Do I look happy to see you like this?" he asked, his voice low. You looked at him with doe eyes. Your eyes and cheeks were red, your lips were wine-stained, and even though you looked like a mess he couldn't help but think how beautiful you were. Your lips suddenly becoming appetizing.

The alcohol in his system took over him as he leaned down to kiss you, a whimper left your lips. His lips were soft, his tongue was warm against yours—just like you remembered. He grabbed your hips and pulled you to his lap, his hand gently caressing your back while his lips worked on yours. Your lips molded together so perfectly, he tasted like vodka and lime. Your hands raked through his hair, your hips slowly grinding on his lap.

"Mmm, baby that feels so good." He moaned into the kiss. "Do you want me to make you feel good baby girl, show you how much I don't hate you?" He groaned in your ear.

"Jaehyun," you moaned and threw your head backward at the feeling of his growing bulge rubbing against your clothed center.

His hands moved from your hips to spank your ass, making you jolt in his lap. Jaehyun groaned as you licked up his throat, leaving open-mouthed kisses all over it.

"I want to make you mine," he whispered as he cupped your face, staring straight into your eyes. "But I can't."

"Why not?" You whined, he chuckled.

"You're drunk and I'm not as drunk as you." His thumb stroked over your cheek softly.

"Last time we did this we were both very drunk," he gave your lips a soft peck. "and you called it a mistake." A tear slipped out, your thumb on his face quickly wiping it off. "Next time you're with me, I don't want you to regret it... cause I know I didn't regret last time."

You head fell to his shoulder, taking his scent in. He still smelled like the first time you were with him. Even though you were drunk, you could still remember how he felt, how gentle he was. His hand was rubbing your back, while your arms embraced his torso.

"You really shouldn't cry about Johnny, he's not worth it."

"He said he loved me." You whispered into his shoulder. Jaehyun stiffened beneath you.

"Do, do you believe him?" He asked.

"No, Mark told me he always tries to get what he wants."

"Mark is a good guy," he started.

"He is, but I don't want Mark." You yawned. Jaehyun hummed, his chin resting on your head.

"You should sleep," he stood up with you still clinging onto him, your arms now around his shoulders as he walked to your room. "let me put you to bed."

"I don't want to." You said clinging tighter to Jaehyun.

"Okay, but you're choking me. Please let go." He said giggling. You dropped into the mattress and laid sprawled on the pillows.

"Can you stay?" you asked. "Please." Jaehyun hesitated.

"I can't. You don't want me to, I don't want you to regret anything you do." He said with a sad tone. "I'll see you tomorrow..." he said and kissed your forehead before leaving your room.

He would've loved to feel you again, to be close to you, to be inside you. You were heartbroken, and he couldn't take advantage of that. He could never take advantage of you, he had to stop himself every time—he didn't want to hurt you. But he always ended up hurting you anyway.