Citrus and Wine | Jung Jaehyun

Chapter 22

A week after your talk with Jaehyun, you sat on your office, working on a new article when you saw Jaehyun's dad leave the building, a smirk of his face as he turned to look at you. This alarmed you as you knew Jaehyun didn't want to see him. You stood up and went to Maria's desk, staring at the man's back as you walked.

"Where did he come from?" you asked.

"I don't know, but I saw him come in with a girl earlier." She said.

"A girl?"

"Yeah, she was tall, thin and had long black hair, she was really pretty. I don't know where she went, though."  Your mouth got dry and your palms sweaty. "Y/n, what's wrong? You don't think she came here for..."

"I just..." you exhaled and ran a hand over your face. The room suddenly became small, suffocating you. "I need to see it with my own eyes. I..."

"Y/n! Where are you going?" Maria called as you made way to the elevator, you ignored her calls and pressed that button. Button 6. The button that was going to lead you to your worst heartbreak.

You wanted to trust him, you wanted to believe him when he said he was not like Johnny. You wanted to believe he cared about you, but you couldn't. You knew he didn't ask you to be his girlfriend for a reason, he wanted an excuse, an excuse to be able to sleep with whoever he wanted. He was just like him.

You were so lost in your own little world that you didn't hear Nina warn you to not go inside. But that's exactly what you wanted to see. This. Him with the woman. And that is exactly what you got.

Jaehyun sitting back on his chair, while she undressed on top of him. Touching him and leaning unto him like you did a while ago. She was beautiful, you couldn't help but feel insecure. Of course, he didn't want to date you, he was fucking prettier girls on the side and you were just stupid enough to be his backup plan.

"Y/n!" he exclaimed, waking you up from your trance. "I can explain, please!" you heard him say but you were already gone.

You walked to the elevator, getting off on your floor. You walked away, out of the building without worrying about your things or the calls Maria made asking you what was wrong. You got in your car and drove home, locking yourself in your room once you got there.

It felt like the world stopped spinning and had been dropped on your shoulders. You sat on the floor just like you did when Johnny told you he cheated. The tears wouldn't fall as you stared at the wall. You had fallen for a cheater again, except this one made you believe he cared about you, he made you believe he wanted you—he made you believe that maybe he loved you.

All those flowers and meals and dates were all to keep you with him so that whenever he got tired of fucking around, he was going to have you.

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"I love to have you here." He said when cuddled up to him, your bare chest pressed against his. "You're so warm." He said and hugged you tightly. "I promise I will never hurt you again." He whispered against your hair as you fell asleep on his arms.

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"Ah," he moaned your name as you moved your hips above him, your hands on his chest as you tried to keep yourself steady. "You feel so good around me, baby."

"Jaehyun!" you screamed, and he pulled you to his chest, thrusting his hips up inside you.

"It's okay, baby, let it go." He whispered and stroked your hair gently before kissing your forehead.

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"What are you doing?" your voice muffled as your face was pressed on his back, your arms around him, embracing him in a hug.

"I'm making your favorite dish." He said and brought one of your hands up to press a kiss on the back.

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"Do you like that, baby?" he growled as he pounded into you at a rapid pace. Your nails digging into the sheets and your chest rising as your breath accelerated.

"Yes," your voice barely coming out as a strangled whisper when his hand wrapped around your neck.

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Everything you did lead to sex, you said you were going to take things slow, but you didn't, and the blame is on you. You wanted to have him all to yourself, but he was clearly never yours—even if you were his.

You heard soft but desperate knocking on the door you were leaning on.

"Y/n let me explain." he came for you. "please, let me in, I swear I didn't do anything." He begged. "Please let me explain!" you could hear his voice breaking.

"There is nothing to explain, Jaehyun. I understand. We are not dating anyway. You can fuck any girl you want, but I don't think I can be one them." You said, your voice stern.

"Don't say that, y/n."

"Why do you even care, Jaehyun? We're just roommates." You spat.

"But I don't want to be your roommate!" he exclaimed.

"Then leave! Leave me alone, go fuck her and live with her Jaehyun!" you yelled. "Get the fuck out of my life! You promised! You promise you were not going to hurt me, but you keep doing anyway!" your voice broke, and the tears started falling.

"Don't say that, y/n. Please don't say those things to me." He sobbed, his voice getting softer.

"What are you going to tell me next huh? Mrs. Jung is your mom? You knew I was going to work for you? You knew who I was before moving in?" and then it hit you. This is what his dad meant by you being bland, this is why he talked to you so proudly and looked down on you. "Mrs. Jung is your mother, isn't she?"

"Y/n..."

"Answer me Jaehyun!" you yelled.

"Yes, she is my mother, but y/n I swear-"

"I can't believe this," you whispered. "What else have you kept from me?"

"Nothing y/n, I promise." You scoffed.

"Stop promising things, Jaehyun. You never keep your word." Every word that came from your mouth was pure venom, the more words that came out the more you hurt him.

"Y/n, please, don't say that." He sniffled.

"What else am I supposed to say, Jaehyun?" you cried. "Am I supposed to open the door, jump into your arms and tell you I love you? I am supposed to forget this is happening?" you said.

"What? You," he whispered. "You love me?" you sobbed harder.

"Yes, Jaehyun, I love you, and I am so stupid for thinking you were not like Johnny when you are just like him."

"Don't say that, I am not like him," he said. "I actually love you! I love you so much it hurts." He said.

"If you love me then why do you keep on hurting me? Why do you keep on lying to me? Why didn't you ask me to be your girlfriend?"

"I..." he hadn't realized he never asked you out, he never asked you to be his girlfriend. "I don't know. But I swear to you, I do love you. Please let me explain who she is."

"No Jae, maybe we are not meant to be together." Saying these words broke your heart, but it was true.

"Y/n, please, trust me." He whispered.

"I can't." you wiped your tears. "I want to, but I can't trust you Jaehyun."

"Please, y/n, don't do this to me." His voice was low, his tone sad. "I love you, I can't lose you again."