Musings

These Days

These days I find myself
Rewinding time back when
We had it all,
We stood on top of the world
Believing we'd never fall

Oh but our world was made up of a stack of cards
Now all that's left of us
Is this debris of broken hearts

These days I carry myself with all the destroyed parts
Carry myself with the wishful thinking that I'll see you again;
Somewhere far beyond,
Where we can be us again
But how can I;
When I can't even see myself through this pain?

These days I find myself reliving the memories of a lifetime
Back when I was yours and you were mine

Did we not anticipate this?
Oh, we did; but it was worth the risk
I fell in head along, you did too
Shattering our bodies and hearts
All that's left is few

These days I feel myself
Going 'round and 'round in circles
Looking for you
Desperately, hopelessly hoping
My nightmares of losing you aren't true

But they are,
Much more real than these shards of broken glass
That break my veins open,
Drain my blood of the memories,
I'm high off you.

These days I find myself searching for you
In the places where you shone like a moon

These days I find myself going over us;
Welcoming the impending doom.