Fighting my monsters

Part 10

A/N Thank you for 1k reads !!
Please can you read my other fiction... I mean you don't have to but I want some feedback on it
Warning ⚠️ contains rape

The weeks followed the same routine for a month:get up, go to school, get bullied, wake up in pain, see Soonyoung, go home, get beaten and then black out.

I hoped it didn't get any worse but as always the world just likes to punish me. Today when I went home after school my dad was waiting on the sofa like normal but this time I saw something in his eyes that no child should have to see. Lust.

"Oi brat"nice nickname...original
"Y-yes ?"i say cowering in fear
"Come here"so I did as I was told and walked towards him I didn't want a worse punishment for not obeying...bad decision. As soon as I was standing in front of him he grabbed me by the arm and pushed me onto the sofa. Hovering above me. "Have you been f*cking people you slut is that why you're always late ?"
This left me confused and disgusted "n-no"
"Stop lying, I'll give you what you want" even though I didn't completely know what he was saying I had heard enough to know that it wasn't good.

I only understood when he lent forward tightening his grasp on my wrist and violently kissed me. First kiss gone,taken by a monster by my own dad. I struggled against his grip but that only made it worse, he slapped me to stop me from struggling. Slowly putting his hands up my shirt toying with my nipples.violating me. I don't want this. Please stop. He fully pulled off my top revealing my bruised chest."i see someone has already gave you a good beating, I'm guessing for being a faggot"
This wasn't my father and I was no longer his son I was just an object for his anger and lust.A burden.

He unbuttoned my pants pulling the down and without preparation thrust into me bare the pain was excruciating I felt like I was being ripped apart, from the inside. He didn't wait for me to adjust to him and started pounding into me, I don't want this. Please stop.

I was trying to get out of his grasp again but every time I did I would get hit. So I stopped struggling thinking I can't get out ,I deserve this and that it might be quicker if I become a doll. It hurt, I felt something trickling down my leg but I was to numb to understand if it was blood or cum. He carried on using me a few more times and came inside me for the final time and pulled out.

It was over....
I was left feeling more worthless than ever ...
I wish I could just die and leave this life behind then everyone would be happy ... I would be happy.

A/N sorry if it's bad I can't write smut/rape or anything really...oh well