Somedays I want to give up
I want to give into the darkness
that weighs me down
just to be in peace
I want the courage
to take that final step
but then I think of the people
counting on me
I think of my mother
my boyfriend
and my niece
and what it would do to them
if I was gone
how it would break
and destroy them
never being the same
so I drag myself out of bed
I make it through another day
I survive
I will not push
the kind of heartache
I feel on them
I hate myself
but I love them even more
I will not make them
have to survive that kind of tragedy
