my mind is a hectic place
and my soul an emotional mess
I keep it pulled in the best I can
but sometimes I crack
feeling the black cloud
stirring in my chest
the heaviness of the rain
pounding down on my body
the storm thrashing in my mind
causing thunder behind my eyes
with the lights cutting out
to leave me alone
in the familiar darkness
boarding up my mind
leaving me in the familiar darkness
to keep everything and everyone out
where sleep claims me for 17 hours
I can hear the damage
hurtling towards me
but don't care enough
to open my eyes
because I don't even try
to get out of the way anymore
