She lays in her bed staring up at the ceiling, she can feel that old feeling coming back, the feeling of emptiness, loneliness, and worse of all self hate, with the feeling comes the voices the angry voices that tell her everything that is wrong with her, the voices that tell her how worthless she truly was, the voices that tell her no one cares if she lives or dies. She lays there feeling nothing she remembered what she did when she felt like this before, she sits up and grabs something off her shelf, she holds it up as the moonlight reflect off the blade, she twirls the blade in her hand she contemplates her decision, when she felt nothing the blade made her feel, it might have been pain but it was better then feeling nothing, she stops twirling the blade and wonders would one time make her feel better or would it make her go back to depending on it? Was it worth throwing away 6 years of hard work and healing? She lays back down on the bed the blade still tightly in her hand, she closes her eyes as one thought goes through her mind what could it hurt?
A/N I don't know if anyone else's has ever gone through this, when I'm really low or just feel empty I contemplate going back to cutting. And I've thought what could it hurt if I did go back, but I honestly think I'd just end up hating myself more if I did. if anyone out there is having the same problem, I know it's hard trust me I do but you can make it through keep fighting the good fight. thanks for reading and much love. -skellington_girl95
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Dark Poetry
Poetryjust some poems I wrote when I'm feeling low or in a dark place, my poems help me cope with my depression and other mental problems it also helps me from going all the way down in my dark times. these poems are dark, depressing and some have suici...
