Dark Poetry

Depression

Having depression isn't what most people think it is.

Having depression doesn't always mean you want to kill yourself.

Having depression doesn't always mean you want to hurt yourself.

Sometime it's not being able to get out of bed.

Sometimes it's sitting in a room with the tv turned on so you have noise.

Sometimes it's just wanted to be alone.

And sometimes it's not wanted to be alone at all.

Sometimes it's not eating all day.

And sometimes it's eating nonstop.

Sometimes it's the thoughts in your head.

And Sometimes it's the voices.

Sometimes you can go months without feeling depressed.

And sometimes it's all you feel as soon as you open your eyes.

Sometimes it's fighting with yourself.

And Sometimes it's fighting with others over it.

Sometimes it can feel like the world is way to loud around you.

So you lock yourself away from it all.

Sometimes its question everything and everyone around you.

Wondering why they'd  ever want to be around you.

Sometimes it's shoving the ones close to you away.

Because you're afraid they'll finally see her broken you are.

Sometimes it's feeling fine one minute .

And the next minute you feel empty.

Sometimes it's not wanted to do something you used to love.

Because you don't see the point anymore.

Sometimes it's questioning yourself on everything you've ever done in your life.

And sometimes it's asking yourself repeatedly why you even try anymore.

And for some it does mean hurting themselves.

Because that's the only way they feel alive.

And for others unfortunately it means taking their life.

It's a battle everyday with depression.

Some win the battle.

Some continue to fight it everyday.

And some can't keep fighting.

It's not easy living with depression.

I myself have gone through all these scenarios.

I've taking blades to my skin to feel something.

I've almost taking my own life twice.

Once with a blade.

The other with a gun.

I've seen people battle with depression.

I've seen people win the battle.

And I've  lost people to the battle.

So please if you have depression and feel like no one understands.

Heres a little advice try to find people like us.

Others like us will listen.

I myself am here to listen.

Remember you my feel like you don't matter.

But you make a difference in everyone's life
that you meet.

A/N alright so I want to say thank you to everyone who reads my poems. This booklet is almost at 100k reads and I never thought I'd see the day that happened. Writing these poems has helped me so much with dealing with my depression, and hopefully has helped others as well. And as I said in the poem I really am here if you need someone that might understand what you're going through and want to talk. Anyway thanks again and keep on fighting my friends. Much love-skellington_girl95