How come I have to feel so much pain while everyone else is ok
How come I suffer while the rest just laugh
How come I can't even smile and others die of laughter
How come I live in a world with so many people yet I'm the one broken
How come I cry myself every night while everyone is asleep
How come I'm so sad and everyone else is alright
Why is it me that's like this
Why am I the one to suffer all this pain
Why do I have to be the victim and not the friend
Why am the one getting hurt all the time
Why do I always ruin everything
Why can't I be perfect
Why is everyone else so happy and I'm not
Just tell me why that's all I want to know
God is it so hard for you to explain why you made me this way
So broken and useless no purpose to serve
Am I doomed forever forced to stay like this
Must I remain this way is there nothing to do
Can't I change and be like everyone so pure
I want to feel no pain I want to have no struggles
I want it all to end and be free of it all
I want to be rid of all my problems and be ok
I want to be happy not in tears
I want to change and be someone else
But how can I change if I'm bound to the chains of society
I must be thin to be pretty
And I must be quiet for anyone to like me
I also must dress in a way that pleases the rest even though it hurts me to do so
I must not be me for I'm a horrid person
No one will like the real me it's what society says
No one wants me to be me everyone wants me to be someone else
But so do I it's true I can't stand my own presence in an empty room
I do desperately want to change but I don't think I can
I'm such a failure I can't even smile right
I'm so fake my smile my laugh inculding my act
It's all to cover up to the dark soul I have
I wear black because that's my soul right there
No color no hope no happiness to be seen
Just an empty black hole you'll see
Why do I have to suffer this way
Can't I be saved I want a night in shinning armor
One that will make me smile for real
Accept me with my scars or not
Make me laugh a real laugh not a fake
One that will love me forever and be mine
One that won't break my heart and leave me in pieces
One that will hold me when I cry and tell me it's alright
One that will be there for me always
And will believe in me even when I don't believe in myself
I wish such being exists but even though he did he'd never want me
After all who would want a broken toy no one that's who
I now slit my throat and die in vein this world is the only one to blame
YOU ARE READING
Feeling pain
Poetry-TRIGGER WARNING -All poems are written by me -These poems are sad and are about self harm, bullying, neglect, abuse, pain, relationships, cheating, racism, sexuality etc... -That's all thx for taking your time to read my poems.
