Feeling pain

Second Choice

I was your second choice whilst she was a priority 

I put you first every day and every time, but to you, she was number one

I loved you the most, even if you often claimed otherwise

I have the right to be mad; you still speak with the girl you called home, yet you claim to love me

I merely wanted to be your first choice, but you did not love me that much

I put all my effort into you, and I try so damn hard only for you to hurt me in the end

I will never get the happy ending with you; I'll merely receive more scars on my heart

I know you will never love me more, for I am not worth it at all, but still, I hope

I wonder why I can never be enough to you why she is, and I am not

I want to hate you so badly for you came into my life, learned my deepest secrets, then left

I forgive you, for everything, for I am that much in love with you, but do not dare ask why I am leaving; that is a question I will not forgive you for