What if everything I feel isn't real
What if I don't know how to feel
What if I'm so lost I can't find home
What if I don't have a home
What if I'm forever doomed
What if I'm never going to be happy
The what if's are endless to my dismay
Is being happy such a huge crime
What did I do to deserve such fate
I'm sorry god for what I have done
Accept my apology please for I can't do it no more
I can't stay sad you see it's hard to be this way
Not knowing where to go or what to do
Not having a place to belong or a family of my own
Not being able to smile or laugh faking it all
I may look happy but I'm not
God save me from this wretched curse
I don't want to live anymore I want to die
Is it so much to ask for the ability to smile
I don't want to act not anymore
I feel so fake it hurts me so much
I see everyone so happy is it just me whose sad
Everyone's talking about their sadness
But to be honest I ain't seen nothing yet
Show me it's true show me I'm not alone
Show me how to be happy show me to not be sad
Is this all too much to ask just a little happiness is all I desire
I'll do anything you ask everything you say
Just give me your word that I'll be happy afterwards and I'll do the rest
I feel like such a a burden on this world
I just want to be like everyone else
Are the last words I said before I went away
Far from this terrible world full of so many lies
YOU ARE READING
Feeling pain
Poetry-TRIGGER WARNING -All poems are written by me -These poems are sad and are about self harm, bullying, neglect, abuse, pain, relationships, cheating, racism, sexuality etc... -That's all thx for taking your time to read my poems.
