Can't Say... (A Pentatonix FanFiction)

Chapter 10

The rest of the rehearsals went by smoothly. The choreo was adapted and changed for the tour and they managed to record almost all the songs they needed to before tour. Of course, there was one song that needed recording but they would do that when they had the chance.

They had all gathered on the tour bus and a few of them went to watch a movie, as Esther was signing them out of the hotel, in the lounge. Genevieve had started up the bus and they were on the move again. Avi being Avi had left his phone in the back of the bus in the bathroom. He had to walk through all the rooms of the bus to get there and just as he was passing the bunks.

"hey, avi?"

He turned around to face one of the bunks on the right, the curtain was pulled back and there was a small man laying there. Mitch. Great, this would be a fun conversation.

"yeah."

"i know you aren't really talking to anyone and i know you don't like talking about the baby but-"

"whatever kevin told you and kirstie in rehearsals this afternoon is not true and that's it i'm not talking about this-"

He turned to leave again.

"wait."

He turned back around to face Mitch again, this Italian is persistent!

"i just wanna know how it happened... kevin says all these things that he's unsure about and i wanted to help him... help your guys--"

"You wanna help us then stop asking about it!"

"Avi!"

"NO! I'm done with this conversation!"

He stormed to the bathroom, where he left his phone and locked the door. He sat on the toilet with it before scrolling through his text messages. There were a few messages from a few people he knew but one, in particular, caught his eye.

D: No one knows, do they?

A: No one knows

D: Good and no one should know. Remember. I can hear and see everything you do. If so much as a soul were to find out about what happened that night. I won't hesitate to deal with you myself, regardless of if you told them or not. And don't get ideas about telling them yourself because I know you far too well, Kaplan. And the things i would do to you and your family. They would be disappointed to find out about what their son used to do. What about your sister or brother? Yet, your bandmates, the crew... Kevin? Find out that you slept with so many other people while in a relationship? What would they say? What would they do? And all for money?! They would be appalled...

A: You lied to me. You told me that you were in debt and needed help but the only way to do so was for me to sleep with him.

D: And you believed it. You did it.

A: No. You took advantage of me when I was in my lowest state for years, I told you everything. How my ex left me cause I wasn't 'good' enough and how I was just a rebound. How he just wanted me for sex and he didn't care about how I felt. He only wanted to please himself. All my past relationships with men have been turmoil. I only did it because I thought I owed you so much for putting up with me... But you didn't care... You let all your friends have their way with me and didn't limit them to anything. I cared for you... I trusted you and you used me. That's why I stopped dating them for years. But Kevin is different. He loves me and cares for me. You knew I was happy and set out to ruin that happiness.

D: "Was" "Loved" "Cared". He doesn't love you, Avriel. Hell, he thinks you cheated!

A: Only because he's desperate! I would be too if I found out that my boyfriend was carrying a baby that didn't belong to me! Wouldn't anyone?

D: Yes, but would their minds go straight to cheating? No. Face it. You were destined to never find anyone to care about you. No one can care for you. And no one will.

A: ...you're right...

D: See? Aren't I always? Now don't let them find out about this. Or me.

D is offline

He sat curled in a ball on the toilet. Why would he even do something like this to him?! He couldn't do anything about this. He can't go to the police, he would know. He can't tell Kevin, he would know. And he can't even drop hints about it to anyone because he would know. He stood from the toilet and made his way to the bunks before laying down in his own. Pulling back the curtains in the process.

Avi had been laying in his bunk for 3 hours before someone pulled back his curtain. Scott.

"hey, i was just checking on you."

"i'm ok..."

"ok, that's a lie."

Scott sat next to the brunette and pulled the curtain back.

"please, avi. the sooner you tell someone the sooner this whole drama can end."

"i don't know what to tell people! i don't even know what happened. i can't tell them a lie!"

"well you better figure it out then otherwise everyone is going to take kevin's side even if they don't have a whole story, and i don't think i can continue waiting around for you to keep this up so you need to figure this out and fast cause i don't stick around for sad stories!"

There. He knew it was coming. But just not so soon and not like that. Yet why was he still extremely hurt by this? He already felt the tears filling his eyes. Scott's eyes were wide with realisation.

"avi look, i didn't mean---"

Avi wasn't having any of it from anyone any more. He pushed Scott off his bunk, resulting in a thud coming from the impact, and pulled the curtain back faster than Mitch downing his Starbucks. He turned on his back towards the curtain and began sobbing.

He was right. No one would wait for him. And no one would care.

He isn't loved.

He isn't cared for.

He isn't wanted.

He isn't worthy.

He has no one.

Alone.

Unloved.

He was better off dead.

No one could fix his broken heart or soul.

He needs them to know the truth. They need to know what happened that night.

He can't say.