Choosing Happiness(Completed)

Kabanata 35

Break

"What?!" His voice thundered.

I never seen him angry. Nakita ko man ay ibang iba ngayon.

"What the fuck are you saying? Kung nagbibiro ka Mary, hindi ako natutuwa." He scowled at me.

I want to remember this. I want him to hate me. Despise me Lucas, because right now, gusto kong wag makipaghiwalay. Gusto kong naroon pa rin ako sa pag-abot ng iyong mga pangarap. The last thing I want to do is to break him apart.

"Y-yes. Ayoko na. I'm tired of this Lucas. I want to breath, kasi nasasakal na ako dito sa relasyon natin." Nanginig ang boses ko.

Binubulong ng isipan ko na wag ko siyang sasaktan. Pero kung ang sagot para sa ikakabuti niya ay makipaghiwalay. I would do everything just so he can reach his dreams. I will never cage him to a relationship that will lead him to his failures and downfall. I'm not the one he needs right now.

"What's wrong? Ano bang nagawa ko?" Pinilit niyang hilahin ang kamay ko pero nagpumiglas ako.

The way I slapped his hand away from me was the sign that he was weak. Madali lang siyang napaatras. "Please, tell me what's bothering you. Bakit gusto mong makipaghiwalay?" I saw something in his eyes. I blinked to see him begging.

"I'm tired Lucas. I'm just tired. I need space. Yun ang kailangan natin." I told him.

Kumuyom ang kamay niya. Namula ang mukha hanggang leeg. He really is hot pag galit. "What bullshit is that? Tell me!"

Lumapit siya sa akin at kinulong niya ako sa kanyang mga braso.

No, don't do this!

Don't fucking cry Mary Axelle.

You are doing this because for him. All for him. I'm choosing the safest decision.

"Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?! Stop with this crappy prank Mary Axelle. I'm not going to fall for this." Banta niya.

I laughed bitterly. "I'm not joking Lucas Di Maggio. We need to end this." Madiin kong sabi.

Aida would applaud me for this. Labag sa akin ito, how can I break someone that I fucking love? But how can I cage him with me when his dreams are slowly shattering apart.

"Stop joking Mary Axelle. It's not funny!" Tumawa siya ngunit bakas ang galit roon.

There was a thing. That someday maybe Lucas will thank me for if I didn't broke with him maybe he's life will be a wreck.

Umiling ako. Naiiyak na pero I need to compose myself. Get my shit together. "I'm not." Pumiyok na ang boses ko.

It hurts to see Lucas hurting. It sucks to push and break someone that I love. I love him that I will choose to set him free just so he can fulfill his dreams.

"Ayoko na." Nangilid na ang luha ko.

He looked angry. He sighed heavily. I want to stay, that I'm just kidding and he'll find my joke ridiculous but no... reality slapped me. We need to prioritize other things than our relationship.