bad girls don't cry {brendon urie x reader}

{i'm on your side}

  i arrive at pete and patrick's house. i let a few stray tears fall as i walk up to their door. i knock and pete opens the door.

  "c'mere hun." pete wraps his arms around me and pulls me inside. we sit down on the couch and i explain everything that happened to him.

  "damn kid. what is up with that house. every other week you're showin' up on our doorstep upset." pete consoles.

  "i'm sorry."

  "don't be sorry darlin'. you know you're always welcome here y/n." pete hugs me tighter.

  "i just don't get it. i'm always facing trouble. i haven't been happy in awhile. i became depressed again when brendon and i split up on my birthday. since then, i can't get out of this funk i'm in. i'm only somewhat happy when i'm away from the panic boys, including brendon." i cry.

  "sweetheart, i know you probably don't want to hear this right now, but maybe you need to separate yourself from them. move out, live here with patrick and i." pete offers.

  "but what about brendon?" i ask.

  "leave him. as brutal as that sounds, it's probably for the best sweetheart."

  "i don't know if i can just get up and leave the guys with no explanation."

  "well do you love ryan?" i nod.

  "do you love brendon?" i nod again.

  "then make it work doll. you are a powerful and strong girl. i know you will speak up and let the boys know. and hey, if shit hits the fan, you can always come here." pete smiles.

  "thank you pete."

  i take a moment and realize that pete and i are cuddling on the couch and he's playing with my hair. how the hell have i not noticed this. i look up at him and he gives me a warm smile. i look into his hazel colored eyes and easily get lost in them. we both slowly start to lean in but i quickly jump up.

  "oh god!" i exclaim.

  "oh shit. we can't do that."

  "i didn't mean to. i was just lost in the moment i guess."

  "sorry y/n. please don't mention any of this to brendon okay?" pete pleads.

  i make a zipping motion over my lips and he chuckles.

  "i should get going pete. i'll see you soon okay."

  he pulls me into a hug, "see you soon hun." he kisses my forehead and i walk out the door.

  yeah i am definitely not telling brendon about that.

  i arrive at home and walk in the house. hopefully i can sneak up to my room in peace.

  "hey y/n" dammit i spoke too soon.

  i turn around and see brendon's smiling face. "hey babe." i kiss him on the lips and he puts an arm around my waist.

  "can we talk please." i nod and follow him to his room. we sit down on the bed and he stares at the floor.

  "what do ya need to talk about baby?" i ask him.

  he sighs, "you know i'm on your side right."

  "really? i thought you were supporting ryan and keltie for a sec." i say, relieved.

  he looks at me, "baby girl, i'm always on your side no matter what. i wasn't trying to make it sound like i was defending them this morning. i was just tryna get the facts straight baby. spencer knows that keltie is something else. ryan and jon...not so much."

  "are you and spence fighting with ryan and jon about this or something?" i ask.

  "no, they just think that it's your fault. they think you started the issue yesterday."

  i open my mouth to argue that it was her fault, but i quickly relax. brendon knows the truth.

  "whatever, let them think what they think. all that matters is i am being truthful and i finally have someone to back me up." i giggle and lay back on the bed.

  "i love you y/n." brendon says.

  "i love you too bean boy." we laugh.

  "oh can you help me pack? the guys and i leave tomorrow to go to the cabin." i nod and start to help him pack.

  an hour of us packing goes by and we are finally done. we spend the rest of the day watching movies.

  i wake up the next morning to brendon's arms wrapped around me. i hear his alarm go off and i reach over him to shut it off. in the process of me trying to shut off his alarm, i accidentally knee him in the dick

  "oh fuck!" he exclaims.

  "oh my god! i'm so sorry brendon." i stifle a laugh.

  "this is not funny y/n." he grumbled.

  i chuckled, "it kind of is." he glares at me.

  "you think it's so funny don't you?"

  "yup." i peck his lips and hop out of bed. i walk to my room to get ready for the day. i look at the clock to see it reading 9:30am. the boys have to leave in an hour. i take a shower and grab one of brendon's t-shirts and my denim jeans. i throw on the clothes and brush my teeth and hair. i put on concealer and mascara and walk out of my room.

  the boys have to leave in ten minutes. their all downstairs putting their stuff into ryan's car. brendon walks in and hugs me from behind.

"i'm gonna miss you babygirl." he whispers, kissing my cheek and temple.

"yeah, i'm gonna miss you too bren. this little trip might be good for us. a break is always good for everyone." i say.

"hopefully. i agree though, we need some time apart. i love you y/n." he kisses me and walks away.

"i love you too brendon."

i start to walk back up to my room when i feel a hand on my arm. i whip around to meet ryan with a grumpy expression on his face.

"i guess i will see you in a month." he mumbles.

i yank out of his hold and cross my arms, "yup."

"i'm sorry."

"whatever." i scoff, "i'll see you later." i grumble and head to my room. i slam the door shut and fall on my bed.

damn. i was kind of a bitch back there. he deserves it though! he blamed that whole keltie fiasco on me. whatever, hopefully this month away will be good for everyone in this toxic household.

i grab my bag that i packed last night to stay at pete and patrick's house. i pack my charger, toothbrush and toothpaste. i slide into my black converse and walk out of my room. i grab my keys and lock the front door. i walk to my car and get in. i start the car and speed off down the street.

thirty minutes later i'm knocking on pete and patrick's front door. pete opens the door with an enthusiastic smile on his face.

"hey hun. good to see you!" he pulls me inside and closes the door behind me.

"what do we have panned for the month pete?" i ask.

he gives me a smirk, "oh sweetheart, you are in for a ride."

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