Cordelia thought there was nothing worse than losing Misty; first off, it was her fault, Misty didn't want to do the tests and Cordelia said everyone had to do them, then Misty got stuck in hell for almost 2 years and that broke Cordelia's heart.
You see, Cordelia and Misty became really close when Misty first arrived at the academy, the swamp witch understood her so well and she was always by her side helping her when she was blind. When she had her sight back, there was no day where Cordelia didn't stare at Misty; her golden curls, ocean eyes, beautiful smile, she was just...perfect.
Then one night, before the seven wonders, Misty came to Cordelia's room wanting to talk to her about how scared she was of dying. She knew it. And Cordelia ignored her. The supreme tried to convince Misty that everything was going to be alright and that she believed in her, she could bet with anyone that Misty was the next supreme. Misty only laughed and then, she kissed Cordelia right on her cheek near to her lips and that's when Cordelia knew that she loved the young witch.
She didn't have the chance to be with her. She didn't have the chance of kissing her properly, holding her, touch her the way she dreamt of and that hurt her the most. And then, the Cajun witch appeared on the academy with Nan by her side.
Cordelia was so happy to her, tears filled her eyes, she wanted to grab the witch and hold her tightly but, there was something wrong. After all, there was something worse than losing Misty, or at least she thought; Misty didn't remember her. She didn't remember any of them. How was that even possible? Nan tried to explain that she did everything to help Misty remember and that maybe, if she saw Cordelia, she would remember everything but unfortunately...she was wrong.
Misty looked at her confused, even terrified, the older witch could tell Misty felt lost. As hard as it was, Cordelia took Misty back to her swamp. Then she finally saw that beautiful smile she was dying to see. Misty was at her happy place. The supreme didn't want to leave her alone, afraid something might happen to her but, she also didn't want to scare Misty anymore.
With a sad smile and a 'take care', she left Misty behind. All the way home, she thought about the sweet girl, the times they spent together, the words that were unspoken. She had so much to tell Misty and even if she was back, she wouldn't be able to tell her anything. Memories would stay in her heart, she would always remember Misty, she would miss her more than anything in the world. She only wished she could have had her time with her.
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"Cordelia?" Zoe opened the door to Cordelia's office. "John is here." She gave the supreme a sad smile.
Cordelia turned to look at Zoe and smiled a little, nodding as she closed the file she was reading and stood up from her sit. "I'll be there in a moment. You're not happy to see him...are you?"
Zoe sighed and walked closer to Cordelia's desk, stopping just in front of it. "I don't hate him. He's very nice and...he's sweet to you. I know he appreciates you very much but...come on Cordelia. I know you better." She looked at the supreme with a concerned look.
Cordelia took a deep breath and looked down at her hands. "Zoe...he's a gentleman and I'm thankful for him." She returned her stare to Zoe as she said her last words.
Zoe shook her head. "You can't even look at me when you say things like that." She shrugged. "But...if you say so." She didn't wait for Cordelia to answer her back before she was out of her office.
Cordelia sighed and closed her eyes, her lips trembling. It's been exactly 4 months since Misty came back. 4 months since John Henry came to the academy in search of Cordelia. 4 months since she decided to give John a chance on taking her out. 4 months since she's been trying to be happy with him. Yes...trying.
