Chilly

11. Numb To The Bone

Jennie's P.O.V.

I don't know how long I've been on this bed. My members keep peeking in my room to check in on me, but I'd rather be alone today. Lisa telling me that she's planning to date Mina really killed my mood.

I shouldn't care at all. Who am I to dictate who Lisa dates anyway? I don't care. She can do whatever the hell she wants. I should be focusing on other things, not her love life.

I snap out of my trance when my phone rings. Its Jongin. "Hello?"

"Good morning, beautiful. How are you?"

I can't help but smile. "Good. How about you?"

"Very amazing, now that I get to hear your voice. Are you busy?"

I sit up. "Not really."

"Is there any chance I can see you today?"

What's he up to? "Um, why do you ask?"

"I was wondering if I could take you and your members out for dinner before you leave for Thailand?" He asks, and I can hear him smiling. "I know you're going to be super busy, but you know..."

My boyfriend always opens up about meeting my members. I'm not against it, but I think that it's just too soon to have that kind of thing. But to him, their approval would mean everything.

"I'm not sure if we can, I'm sorry," I reply. "It's just that our schedule is really full from now on."

"No, it's fine. I'm just bummed that we've been dating for a few months now but they still haven't met me aside from public events yet," he says, sighing heavily. "I wanted to meet them as soon as possible."

I subtly roll my eyes. He's really not going to drop the subject until he gets what he wants, is he? "It's not our fault that our schedule is really full, okay? There's nothing I can do about it."

There's a short pause before Jongin speaks up. "I never said it was your fault," he states, his voice more serious. "All I said was that I wanted to meet them."

"Yes, but it's like you're guilt tripping me so that I'll agree with you," I defend. "And I keep telling you now's not the time because our tour is coming up and we don't have time for that."

"I wasn't but now you're implying that you value all that more than me," he snaps. "What you're saying is you don't have time for me."

Ugh, are we really going to fight over this? I'm tired, my head is pounding, everything is a mess and he decides to argue? What a bunch of bullshit. "Exactly! I can't just clear up my schedule so that you can impress my members. You of all people should know how to put priorities straight, you've been in this industry longer than I have. So stop making all this my fault."

"So now you're saying that you know better than me? You're taking this way too personally."

"I should be because this is my job we're talking about, Jongin! Stop putting words into my mouth," I reply, taking a deep breath to calm myself down.

"I'm not putting words into your mouth. Maybe if you didn't imply that I wasn't that important to you maybe I wouldn't be that offended."

The audacity of this man. He's an idol too, why can't he just understand? "Oh my god, are you for real? I'm. An. Idol. You are too, for crying out loud! I can't just make time for you whenever I want to. We have to abide to a schedule every single fucking day. Just because the whole world know about our relationship doesn't mean that we get a free pass."