Meredith's Thoughts Volume 3

hey kids

So basic update; Michael is on and off a lot and basically; I miss him like crazy but I don't want who he is now, I somehow still love him through all the constant bullshit but he hurts me to the point where I don't wanna talk anymore.
Friends are meh rn
Don't know what to do about schoooolllssss :/
Yesterday my mom blew up at me again like always and thinks something wrong with me and is making a doctors appointment because she thinks I'm bipolar. So that's great. I have now cried 62 times in 2019 and last night's was like a 9/10 on the crying scale.
Got a keyboard, tryna learn piano but it's hard bc idk how to read music and stuff like I know nothinggggg and I'm tryna play these songs but idk wtf I'm doing so kinda frustrated.
Oh also my parents said how I'm wasting my life but like helloooo you're the ones who don't let me do shit "I think we are much more lenient than a lot of parents" hah bullshit. Actually bullshit. Now they're all like "let's set a family rule about phones" like hah yeah see how that plays out. Bitch.
Whatever. I can't say how I actually feel about anything bc it's twisted around and any good point I make is just "disrespectful" and oh mani could go on and on and on but I don't feel like it right now.
Idk what I'm doing I just like need to get away for a weekend with someone.
:/