Meredith's Thoughts Volume 3

Relapse

The next time I talk to him is most likely November 11th 2018.
I might show up at his church that day too, not sure which one I'm gonna do.
Text or church or both.
It's gonna be really hard.
But I decided with Florida on the 31-5 I didn't wanna have the stress of talking to him again during vacation ya know if that makes sense. Then also I wanna give myself the following week to catch up on school without the distraction of talking to him again too. I know I know, I was gonna do it on his birthday, and I still will text him happy birthday, but it's not gonna be the actual time to talk ya know. The 31st just wasn't gonna work with Florida.

Guys I still really miss him. I miss his laugh and his smile and holding his hand and sitting close to him and putting my head on his shoulder and his hand on my leg and kissing him a bunch and hugging him and being there next to him and looking in this eyes and him touching my hair and if I said I looked bad that day he'd hug my closer and say nooooo, and FaceTiming him and hugging his sweatshirt and watching him hug mine and cedar point and I miss fighting over our phones and I miss laughing with him and I miss talking to him late at night and first thing in the morning I miss him so much I miss him so much I miss him so much I miss him so much I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him him him him him I just want him I just want Michael and that's all I want is him.