Meredith's Thoughts Volume 3

still deciding

I don't know what to do about schools for real, like, no option is good. Cspa I got hella hate and no friends, hartland I got intimidation and Emily and Michael and Ally, Milford I have boredom and Lorelei.
Ok we're gonna put down the people we don't want and then / do want at the schools

Cspa: Abby, Sophia, (and their friends), Dani, Kelsea / Erika, sofie, Nathan

Hartland: Michael, Emily, ally, Britney(?) / Julia, Kate(?), idk people but any sane people

Milford: Lorelei's freshman friends / lorelei (?), Clare

Volleyball portion of school was ok and I think that's the thing I'd miss and then like petricca and verklan+underwood

I can do softball at hartland and I've kinda always wanted to, not sure how I will like homework system bc idk how it is bc it'll prolly be different for every teacher

Milford I have no hate but I won't make friends very easily bc everyone just has things to do and places to go and it's a kinda on your own thing idrk how to describe it

But I don't want to switch or stay for anyone, I wanna do what's best for ME! (EEE-EE-E, Cue Taylor Swift and Brendon Urie but ANYWAYS) and idk how to not be pulled my peoples opinions and ugh I'm trying. People are going to be upset either way. I'm going to be upset either way. And $10 says nobody thinks I'm gonna switch bc I don't have the balls or that's just "not who I am", fuck that. And those opinions about me are the reason I wanna get out of here. And I won't even have any classes with sofie next year. So Idek.
Oh then I asked myself that in a parallel universe, if I went to hartland and Michael wasn't going to hartland anymore for whatever reason, would I be upset. And i was like well shit yeah I think I would be. But then I was like wait a fuck no bc if he didn't go there then I wouldn't be hung up on looking for him in the halls. I'm over the heartbreak but not over him. Ya feel? Not on topic.
Anyways, idk what imma do. And I have like 2 days to decide. Fun fun fun.