Meredith's Thoughts Volume 3

Story time

Aye what is up guys mere here with another one of her dumb fuck mistakes! Idk if it was a mistake but I guess not ideal? Maybe ideal? Idek but anyways. So I kissed nathan for a third time. Basically;
Sunday morning we were hanging out at church like usual and when I had to go he also was leaving the back building and I kinda just stopped walking when we got into the first room (everyone was in the gym) bc I was VERY CLOSE to pulling him into the other room and kissing him but I didn't and instead I was just like "idk" and then eventually went home.
THEN
Sunday night there was this potluck food thanksgiving thing and basically I had been debating about going the whole day and I finally went. And in the car on the way in my head I was like, "fucking hell I'm gonna kiss him aren't I"
So blah blah food time we eat I awkwardly talk with Michael's parents we hang in the gym and play pool with Zac and his girlfriend and then eventually I'm sitting in one of the recliner-couch-chairs with him like not on him but next to him and then he was trying to go through my phone so I flipped shit bc bro there's stuff on here lmaooooooo. So I like wrestled him and I ended up just having my legs on top of him but like whatever it was just chill. And then so I told my mom it ended at 7:30 and it's like 7:21 and my mom texts me that she's here so I'm like "I gotta go" and then I eventually get up and he follows me bc of Idek I don't remember. And so it's only 7:20 ish but it's really dark out bc winter so we get outside and we're in between the back of the main building and the front of the back building and I just kinda stop and pull him over past the windows (where food thing mainly was so) and he's all like "what" and I was just like "idk" (ok weird thing tho so usually in most moments of my life I'm like processing what I'm doing and I kinda either have big anxiety and follow my thoughts to a T or I totally do the opposite of what I'm thinking but in this moment I wasn't thinking, not in a "what was I thinking" way but I was just, doing IDEK WHAT TO CALL IT) ok anyways
So I'm like "idk" and then he put his hands on my waist and I kinda like fell forwards onto his shoulder kinda thing bc im all like Idek what I'm doing and Idek and he's all like "cmon"
So he starts walking forward which makes me back up/walk backwards and hahah first I almost trip on the cement brick but we laughed so it's chill and then he like pulled me to the side of the building and then like
Bro I don't even think I can handle writing a description UMMMMMM
Idek but the next thing I knew was we were kissing and (bro I literally couldn't fucking breathe he needed to SLOW TF DOWN but sometimes you just gotta take the L) and like
Bro Idek
I can't even freaking write this hahahha
It wasn't that bad
His hands went places
And then he lifted me up so my legs were wrapped around him
And bro Idek
Like bro bro bro bro bro whAT
and then
Idek.
Why am I so embarrassedhahahah maybe bc people read this
Hi Erika I am sorry heheheheheh
Welp imma just spit it out
SO BASICALLY HE LIKE REALLY FUCKING GRABBED MY ASS LIKE BRO WHAT LIKE A LOT INTENSE HARD WHATEVER WORD YOU WANNA USE LIKE THATS HOW HE LIFTED ME UP BUT LIKE TO AN EXTENT HIS ONE HANDS FINGERS KINDA WENT IN LIKE THE MIDDLE SO HE WAS ALMAOT WHERE MY FUCKING VAGINA WAS KIKDA IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE KT AND SO I CASUALLY PUT MY HANDS IN HIS HAIR RIGHT BC THATS JORMAL SO THEN MY KEGS WERE WRAPPED AROUND HIK EVENTUALKY AND (wait pause ok he needed to slow down and I couldn't breathe and it was kinda teethy but, it happens to the best of us? Idk maybe the other shiz makes up for it) AND THEN I WAS ALL LIKE "I GOTTA GO" and HE WAS LIKE "DO YOU THOUGH" AND LIFTED ME UO AGAIN AND THEN LIKE TOTALLY GRIPPED THE BACK IF MY HEAD/HAIR KIKDA THING YA KNOW and BRO IDEK IDEK I DONT FUCKING KNOW I DONT EVEN
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and THEN he eventually walked around the building back to the front and I walked back around where we came and RIGHT at that moment zac and NATHANS DAD come out of the back building/gym doors and were like "where's nathan?" And I was like " I think he went inside" and then Zac was like "wait and where were you" (I think he might suspect it so it might've clicked) and I was like "I gotta go my moms here" and left.
Then I ran into nathan at front doors and I was like "ya better make a cover story"

But then this fucker said he didn't wanna "do it all the time" or smthn like that so I blew up at him and got really upset and was like "no ya know it's fine, really it's fine, what did I really expect anyways, what you makeout with me once and now you're done with me? Like I'm some fucking object? Damn guys really are all the same. Jokes on me huh?"
Smthn like that
So.... yeah
Lol