Mercy

Chapter 30

  I've felt pain, but not pain like this. This is literally heartbreaking.

  The night when Raiden kicked me in my stomach was also the night that I had a miscarriage.

  I lost a child that I didn't even know I was carrying and it's the worse feeling ever.

Ella's imagination

POV LINDA

"Pregnant? Pregnant, pregnant?" Jamar asked.

"Yes, I'm pregnant Jamar. That is what happens when two people have sex. Stop acting stupid."

"Linda don't get disrespectful with me or you'll get slapped. You hear me?" Jamar said as he pointed his finger in my face.

  I took a step back as he put his hands in his pockets and stood in frustration.

"You know what, you have to get rid of that thing Linda."

"Thing? I'm not losing another baby because of you. I already lost four babies, and I'm fed up. I'll take care of this baby alone if I have to." I said before I began to walk away.

"Linda if you take another step, I'll beat that shit out of you myself. Don't try me. —You're already testing my patience. You can't even raise Ella and you think you can raise another baby alone?" Jamar fumed as I kept walking.

He took his belt off from around his waist, grabbed me, and began to hit me viciously with the it.

"Jamar! Stop! Please." I cried as I laid on the floor and covered my face with my hands.

  Momentarily, Jamar stopped and dropped to the ground.

"I'm–I'm sorry." Jamar mumbled as he tried to touch me.

  I pushed his hand away as I shook my head and looked down at my blue dress.

I was bleeding.

"Number five." I cried.

"I don't know what got into me, it was an acci—"

"Shut up!" I interrupted.

Reality

I gasped.

"Hey, I got you." Justin said as he sat by me and he held my hand while I laid on our bed.

I sighed as I sat up. "This is too much."

Justin looked me in my eyes and I began to cry.

"Hey." Justin said as he caressed my hand.

"I'm okay." I slightly smiled as I wiped my tears.

POV JUSTIN

Neither of us are okay right now.

POV ELLA

"I'm...I'm going to go out for some fresh air." I said as I got out of the bed.

"Ella—"

I began to cry again. "Justin, I just need some fresh air."

Justin grabbed my hand and sat me on his lap.

I then placed my head on his shoulder and cried my eyes out.

"We're going to be okay, I promise." Justin mumbled.