Nothing Like Us | Euphoria

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Chapter 19: I Don't Care, I Like You

S a n a

He didn't let my hand go as we wait for a bus to stop at the bus stop. He just held it tightly inside the pocket of his hoodie no matter how many times I tried to pull it off as we sat there on the bench at the bus stop silently.

Minutes later a half empty bus stopped at the bus stop, some passengers made their way out of the bus so we waited till they got off when only a few were left to get off the bus we stood up and made our way into the bus.

I was supposed to get my bus card in my bag when I heard some beeps coming from the pay machine of the bus. Using his other hand he was already paying our fares in bus using his bus card.

He slowly pulled me to the seats at the back as we are trying to hide our faces while looking down. Then we settled to seat at the back so no one would notice us.

He paved way to let me sit beside the window at the right side since he was holding my left hand inside his pocket it would be the best if I sit on the right part.

We were just silent as the bus went on moving. I was just looking on the city lights and the busy streets of Seoul and I don't know whatever sunbaenim is doing since I don't have my focus in him.

Seconds later the bus came to stop, and a lot of passengers went in. Some middle school students made their way to the back part of the bus, three of them sit on the seat were we are seating since it's the last seat at the back of the bus it can have at least five to six person sitting on it.

I felt him moved closer to my side as we kept in silence while the student passengers began talking about random stuff.

The bus went on moving again and I continued looking to the outside view. I felt him rested his head on my left shoulder but I didn't mind talking since I'm afraid that some may notice our voices.

Seconds later I heard him whisper to my ear asking if we're still far so I faced to his side giving him a no not anymore gesture.

After a few minutes I saw a familiar street ahead after getting closer to it I pressed the stop button at the side of the bus.

Then we both get up, he was still holding my hand as he took the lead on walking out of the bus. The bus immediately went by as soon as we got off...

"So where's your dorm noon... I mean Sa... Sana?" he asked me

"Down this street at the end of the third to the last block, there is a residency there. Our dorm is at that building's pent house..." I said as pointing out the way..

"Then let me walk you to there..." he said as he started walking while I just stood there in place taking the opportunity so he could let go of my hand but he was gripping it tightly but in a way that he wouldn't hurt my hand. So in the end it just made him stopped.

"No need... I can manage myself..." I said as I try to pull my hand again

"I insist..." he said with finality in his voice while he gave me a serious gaze

"No Kookie ah aniyo... Sunbaenim you shouldn't bother..." I said as I try to look down

"But my will says that I should walk with you to your dorm..." he said as he tried to pull me again but I just stood there at the side of the road were the bus dropped us off without making a move.

"Come on Sana-ah..." he said and tried pulling me again...

I lifted my eyes and meet his gaze... "Please sunbaenim... Stop making my feelings go confused..." I said in a pleading voice while trying to hold my tears not fall down.

Don't get me wrong I am just protecting the last stroke of my pride that I have for myself. I'm just so afraid that maybe he doesn't feel anything towards me so I wanted to cut communications with him early as possible so the pain I'll feel is not fatal.

"Why am I making your feelings go confused?" he asked me while looking at me seriously

"This..." I said pertaining the current moment " Everything is just so wrong..." I said in a low voice

"Let's not talk here..." he said as he dragged me down the street making me realize that we are already gaining attention from passer by's good thing that they weren't able to figure our who we were.

He pulled me to a dark alley in between two buildings on the opposite way to our dorm.

Then he made me faced him while still looking at me in a serious way.

"So tell me what is wrong..." he said in a threatening way which gave me goosebumps.

"All of these... My confused feelings, me being a rising idol, you being a famous idol... We being not allowed to date or get in contact intimately with idol of opposite gender... The fact that being close to you makes me more confused..." I said in a low voice while trying hard to avoid his gaze.

"Then why does being close to you makes you confuse?" he said half shouting making me shift from my position a little because I was taken aback when he suddenly raised his pitch up causing him to let go of my hand.

"You being near to me reminds me that I'm not allowed to date yet! It's making me realize that I choose this life myself without anyone influencing me. That I chose to be an idol myself. I am confused because I'm slowly falling for you pabo!" I said as my emotions burst out with my tears as I was pointing him and meeting his gaze.

He closed the distance between us and pulled my right hand as he placed in his chest enclosing me on a tight hug...

"I'm afraid that I might forget that I am still on dating ban and that JYP Pdnim recently scolded us and told us to avoid scandals of the moment..." I continued as he was still hugging me on a tight embrace.

"I don't care about those stupid rules the heck! I don't care because I like you Sana-ah... I liked you very much  as soon as I first laid my eyes on you... I've been drawn directly to you..." he said on a calmer voice the he moved a step back then he looked down on me and he wiped the tears on my eyes using his thumb.

"But... the rules... I don't think it's the right time right... Can we wait until the dating ban is lifted? I know that JYP Pdnim meant no dating until October 2018 but didn't specify no flirting on the time being but I'm afraid of the consequences." I blurted my worries out.

He held my hand and gave me a reassuring smile. "Then let's wait until your dating ban is lifted. I can deal with that but promise me no other man in your life except me and your relatives of course..." he said "Come let's bring you home!" he said as he turned around giving me a glimpse of his red ears then my cheeks instantly burned too.

Then he slowly started to walk out of the alley as I followed him closely and headed to the direction of our dorm.

Under the moon light and stars a sealed promise has been made by two connected hearts and will be fulfilled in the near future.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I just got my college ID today indicating that classes will be starting so soon... Hahaha and I am not yet on the right state for school.