Fall

Stay 14

I drove my sisters car back to my house. Justin's car was parked in the driveway. I went inside and seen Justin coming down the steps with his bags. "What are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm leaving," I tried to stop him.
"Bella move," He said looking me in the eye.
"No,"
"Go be with your boyfriend,"
"You are my boyfriend,"
"Not anymore,"
"What?"
"You keep letting him be disrespectful!" I didn't say anything.
"Exactly my point!" He said moving passed me with his bags.
"So you're just gonna leave me?" I asked on the verge of tears.
"I need some time to think if this is what I want," he sighed. A tear ran down my cheek.
"If this is what you want? You know what fuck you! Okay?I said.
"You're gonna really leave me here because of a kiss on the cheek?" I said with tears. Justin looked away.
"Ive been talking to Hailey again," he admits. My heart completely shattered.
"What?"
"I'm sorry I kept that from you," He said looking down.
"So all of the things you did were because you felt guilty," I said pain evident in my eyes.
"No of course not. Bella I love you, I'm in love with you and that's not gonna change,"
"Then stay,"
"Bella,"
"Don't leave me," I said moving closer to him.
"I can't," he whispered.
"Then you don't love me," I said walking out crying. I hopped in my sisters car and drove back to my aunts house. Ming called and I told her to come outside. She got in the car and I bursted into tears. "Honey what's wrong?"
"He's leaving me!" I sobbed into the seat.
"Justin leaving?"
"Yes and on top of that he's been talking to Hailey again," my best friend consoled me.
"Bella I'm so sorry," she held me. My heart felt like it was dying. There was a pain in my chest.
"He's leaving me," I kept repeating. My mom and Pattie came out to the car. My mother noticed my face and rushed over with Pattie following her.
"Bella what's wrong?" She asked.
"He's leaving me!"
"Who?"
"Justin,"
"Wait what happened?" Pattie asked as her phone ran. She looked at it, "it's my son," she said walking away. Ming explained the story to my mom. Pattie came back over.
"I talked to him, maybe the two of you need some space," she suggested.
"I don't want space though, he's gonna fall in love with Hailey and then our marriage will be actually be publicity stunt,"
"I know honey but maybe things were moving too fast," my mom said.
"Justin loves you so that girl is the least of your concerns I can promise you," Pattie said. I could feel the darkness form over me. I began to stare into space. My mother noticed. "Bella look at me, you can't let this take over you honey," she said.
"Is she okay?" Pattie asked.
"Bipolar Depression," I said looking up at her.
"I'm so sorry honey," Pattie held me and kissed my forehead. She dialed a number and walked away. A few minutes later she returned.
"He hasn't left yet and he's on his way back to the house. Go talk to him I'll drive you and come back here," Pattie said. My mom gave her the keys to her car and we were on our way back to the house. The car ride was silent until we reached the house.
"Listen honey no matter what, you guys love each other so don't make irrational decisions okay," I nodded getting out the car. Dealing with problems head on wasn't something I liked to do. I looked back at Pattie and cried again. I felt overwhelmed and I collapsed to my knees and cried. She immediately jumped out of the car and came over to me. "I can't do it!" I said into her chest. She rubbed my back and a moment later I heard the door open. "I've got it mom thanks," I heard Justin say. She let me go and I stood up and walked into the house. Justin shut the door and I sat on the couch with my legs crossed. There was silence for a few moment and my sniffles. "I'm sorry," he says and for the first time I look up. "I feel like you're only sorry because I'm crying,"
"I mean it Bella, I overreacted just a little. I mean I still feel the same way about Micheal. It's like he flirts with you and you let him right in front of my face,"
"Justin why is it such a big deal if Micheal is into me? I love you, its you not him. My last name is Bieber not Jordan. I told you I do not have feelings for him. I don't flirt back with him."
"Dammit Bella I don't want to loose you! How can you not understand that. We don't really have a choice but to be married for the next 10 years. We signed a contract you're love for me could die away. One day you could wake up and feel trapped, like I'm an obligation. You can fall for him and want to be with him because you're not forced too. What we have isn't real it's a piece of paper."
"Are you kidding me?" I scoffed.
"What we have isn't real? Is that really how you feel?" I said getting heated.
"Bella that's not what I meant and you know that,"
"No I don't, it sounds to me that you doubt my love for you," I whispered.
"I'm saying that you could have chemistry with this man, he could be your soulmate and I can't bare to watch you fall in love with someone else,"
"How can you say that and this whole time I've been all about you. I spent all day yesterday with you. I moved into your house with you. I've been all in, this whole time,"
"I know," he sighed and coming over to sit next to me. He put his arm around me. I looked him in the eye. "How could you doubt my love for you when I gave you my innocence?"
"I feel like such an asshole. I'm really sorry," he kissed me.
"I don't trust you," I tell him. He was a bit taken back from my comment.
"Why?"
"You went behind my back and have been talking to Hailey. This whole time you've been feeling like I haven't been all in and you went to her,"  Justin's phone rang and he looked down at the caller ID. "It's scooter,"
"Answer it," I tell him and he nodded and walked away. 10 minutes later Justin came back and sat down while releasing air from his mouth. "We have to catch the first flight in the morning to New York for a charity event, our first red carpet as a married couple," I nodded and walked away into our bedroom. Justin soon came in but things were still silent. "My sister is about to pick me up, I'll be back later," I tell him and he nodded. My sister text me informing me she was outside. I ran down the steps and out to the car. "I heard what happened," Tori said. "I'm sure," I sigh.
"Look as your big sister I'll be honest with you. I can see it in your eyes you're feeling Mike. I mean I don't blame you that man is fine as hell. But you're married now and you need to respect Justin more. If he's feeling a certain way you need to acknowledge his feelings and not just push them off to the side and make them seem unimportant. It's not cool for him to have been talking to Hailey on the low but that's just karma for your thoughts of being with Mike. You need to take this marriage seriously or keep it strictly business,"  My sister was right I pushed Justin's feelings to the side and made him feel crazy and the whole I was lusting after Mike. "You're right," I tell her. We pulled into my family's Georgia home and got out. We walked inside and Mike seen my face. "Bella I'm really sorry, I caused so much shit," I looked him in his eye. "Mike? I said with a shaky voice. "Yeah?" he looked hurt because he knew What's was coming next he wouldn't like. "We can't be friends anymore,"
"What?"
"Listen you like me and I like you too more than a friend actually. I have to respect Justin and our relationship because he's who I'm committed to and he deserves all of me," I say looking down.
"I understand," he said lowly.
"See you around kid," he went to turn away but I pulled him back. He looked at me as I looked into his eyes. "Kiss me," I said. Mike kissed me and sparks shot through my body. He grabbed my waist and brought me closer. It felt right and wrong at the same time. "I don't want to let go," I tell him. "Then don't," he tell me and kissed my forehead.
He looked at me and kissed my lips over and over again until someone gasped. We both looked over to see Ming at the door with Jay. They both were smirking. I looked back at Mike and he smiled.  "One more kiss?" He asked. I leaned up and grabbed his face and kissed him once more. After I walked away with my two best friends hot on my trail. We went into my bedroom and shut the door. "Bitch spill," Ming said. "It just happened I was telling him we can't be friends because I liked him.
"I knew it!!!!!!!!!" Jay said.
"And one minute I'm telling him to kiss me and we kissed," I say.
"What about Justin?" Ming asked.
"I still love him but we're not on the best Of terms right now which is the worst because we have our first married couple appearance tomorrow,"
"He's been talking to Hailey on the low," Ming informed Jay.
"Oh shit!"
"Yeah I know," I said.
"Bella!" I heard Rose yell from downstairs.
"Coming!" I yelled back. We all went downstairs and into the living room.
"Yes grandma?"
"Sit down and talk,"
"Grandma I don't  feel like talking about it anymore. It's stressing me out and I have to leave early tomorrow for an event,"
"Alright Bella," was all she said.
"Don't be mad it's just a lot right now Okay,"
"Okay baby,"
"I'm going home you guys enjoy the rest of your day okay?" I said leaving. I ubered back to the house. When I got in it was dark and quite. The tv from the master bedroom was on. I walked inside of the room and Justin was fast asleep.

I took off my clothes and climbed in bed. "Justin," I shook him. He stirred a little before his eyes opened. "Can you wake up?"I asked softly.
"What's wrong?" He asked sitting up.
"I love you," I tell him.
"I love you more honey. Are you okay?"
"No I'm sorry for not validating your feelings babe. I won't ever do it again. I'm all yours fully yours okay? I love you and I don't want to loose you just as much as you don't want to loose me. Let's get away okay no family no friends just us. We can get a little apartment or something in New York or maybe Paris."I rambled.
"Bella baby breathe, whatever it is you want to do we'll do okay baby?" I nodded and hugged him. I loved Justin and I'm not allowing anything to ruin it.
"I have a little home in Paris," Justin tells me.
"Really?"
"Yea we can stay there and you can plan our wedding and we'll be together just us. Occasionally we'll fly the families out there but for right now I need you all to myself."