Fall

New Normal

"Bella baby wake up,"  Justin shook me. I opened my eyes to see him fully dressed. I sat up confused scratching my head.
"Where are you going?" I asked him pouting.
"I have a session with Kanye for a little bit but I'll be back a little later," he said kissing my forehead making me smile.
"I thought you were leaving me," I slightly laughed.
"No baby I'm with you until tomorrow morning. I have to get back to Elisabeth," he said.
"Justin I miss her so much," I sigh.
"How about this? I'll send for her and we'll both stay for the rest of the week?" He smiled.
"I would love that!" I tell him.
"Okay baby I'll get on it. I'm about to leave out I'll see you later have an amazing day," he said before leaving. Once he left James came into my bathroom while I peed.
"Y'all were so loud last night bitch," he rolled his eyes.
"My bad I missed him and I needed some daddy dick," I laughed.
"Well sis you got it!" he sat on my counter.
"What's the schedule for today?"
"You have a shoot for Calvin Klein, a business meeting with Maybelline, and one shoot for an upcoming clothing line. You're free after that. Oh and Stella flew back to Cali another client had a meeting or something she was saying," he informed me.
"Can I ask you something?" I look up at him.
"Of course we're besties,"
"You think I'm moving too fast in my life?"
"Bella honestly no. I mean like I feel as if the things that are happening are making you stronger. You haven't had an episode in a while. Despite the bullshit that keeps going on between you and Justin, I think he's really good for you. He's teaching you patience. I think what's happening is a good thing," he smiles.
I nodded hopping off of the toilet after wiping myself.  "Sometimes I feel like maybe taking in Elisa was too much or too fast. Don't get me wrong I love her and she's the best thing in my life right now besides my husband. But it's like just three months ago I was single doing as I please just living life day to day. I was my own person and now it's like I'm married with the responsibility of a little girl. I just wonder if I rushed all of this," I shrugged sitting in my bed.
"Have you talked to Justin about how you feel?" Jay asked sitting down next to me. I looked up at him and shook my head no.

"Communication is key and before you actually adopt her, you need to know that this is what you want. You need to honestly make sure that Justin is what you want as well before you go and plan a wedding. These are two major things and don't do it because you feel obligated Isabella," he looked me in my eyes.

"James I love Justin so much and I also really love Elisabeth. I love my family that has developed but I just miss being my own person,"

"You're still you but just an upgraded version," he winked. I liked the way he put it. He was right I'm still the free-spirited Isabella just upgraded.

"I love you, Jay," I kissed his cheek.

We were arriving at the Calvin Klein shoot and I was ready for it. I had this new burst of energy and I was ready to flirt with the camera. As soon as we walked in I headed straight to the dressing room.

"Good morning Bella it's great to meet you in John and I'll the set manager today," he extended his hand for me to shake. I kindly shook his hand and smiled.

"Good morning and it's nice to meet you too,"

"Okay first things first is hair and makeup and then we will get you into different pieces. I want to take a couple of candid shots first just to see the angles and we should be good from there," he informed me before escorting himself out.

Hair and makeup were never a long process at shoots so I was done quickly. A man wheeled in five different pieces for me to put on.

"This is the first piece for you to wear, come out when you're finished," he said holding up a sports bra and boy shorts set. Jay shut the door as I quickly got myself inside of the set. I walked out and onto the canvas.