Fall

Love 16

"I like this," I say looking around. I was currently looking for an apartment to live in New York. It's been 3 days since my blow up with Justin. I haven't heard from him. I've decided to move on with my life. This relationship is business, we took one final view of the loft and I fell in love.
"I'll take it!" I informed the real estate agent. She smiled and handed me the keys.
"You're stuff is still at Justin's in Cali," James said.
"I know my sister is having everything sent here for me,"
"Have you talked to him?"
"Nope," I rocked back and forth on my heels.
"You guys will figure it out," He says. After viewing my new apartment I went to a local café to sit and journal. I heard that it would help with my thoughts. I walked up to the counter and ordered a buttered blueberry muffin with a hazelnut coffee. I sat near the window which wasn't the best idea because the pap stood outside and snapped pictures. I blocked them out and continued to write what was on my heart. My phone rang and I looked down at the caller ID. It was Justin I watched it ring until it stopped. I turned my attention back to my Journal until my phone rang again, it was Justin again. I didn't know why he was calling but I didn't want to talk to him so I watched it ring again. He text me and I opened up my phone while finishing the muffin. The text read 'Bella call me we need to talk it's very important' I read it and left him on read. I just wasn't in the mood for anything that would irritate me today. After I finished my food I got up and walked out. My apartment wasn't too far so I walked back home. When I got in I sat my bag and keys down. My phone rang again and I looked back down to see it was Mike. I contemplated on whether I wanted to answer, I was single so I answered.
"Hello," I greeted him.
"Hey Bella,"
"Wassup?"
"I haven't heard from you in a couple of days, I wanted to make sure you were good,"
"Thanks Mike I appreciate it. I just bought an apartment up here because this is where I'll be staying for right now,"
"Oh so you're not coming back to LA?"
"For right now no," I sigh.
"Well how are things with Justin?"
"Separated at the moment,"
"Why?"
"He found out about our kiss,"
"Oh my gosh Bella I'm sorry,"
"For?"
"I told him but only because I was trying to make things right and apologize and let him know that I would respect your relationship. I honestly thought you would have told him,"
I sighed and tilted my head back." It's fine mike but I gotta go,"
"I understand," he sighed. I hung up and threw my phone in the couch. I was bored out of my mind. I didn't have anything scheduled until next week. I texted my emergency girls trip group chat for a last minute getaway. I needed to get away from everything and lay on the beach. The rest of the night we arranged a trip to the Maldives. It's somewhere we've been dying to go to so I was excited. I would pack but my clothes hadn't come in yet. This means that I needed to go to the mall. There was a knock on my door. I groaned getting up to open the door. I open the door to see Justin holding Roses. I rolled my eyes.
"Why aren't you answering my phone calls?" He asked.
"I didn't feel like talking,"
"You didn't feel like talking?" He questioned. I sat in the couch and played with a pillow in my lap showing my disinterest in this conversation.
"No Justin I didn't feel like talking to you, you left me remember and I haven't heard from you in like four days,"
"You kissed another man remember,"
"What did you come over here for Justin?" I sighed.
"I wanted to make things right," He gestured to the flowers. I just stared at him.
"So I'm just suppose to act like nothing happened because you decided you wanted to be with me? I don't even know where or who you've been with for the past couple of days Justin. What I did was wrong I get it and I said I was sorry. You left me for the second time and the first time it wasn't even my fault. You felt threatened and left. What makes this time different?" I asked.
"These days away from you were hard for me. I was alone the first day I stayed at my house. I needed some time to clear my head. The second day I had invited Hailey over. I'll be man enough to admit that we had sex. But it didn't feel the way it does when we make love. I was longing for the feeling of you. I craved you and I felt guilty for giving someone else something that belonged to you so that's why I didn't call. By the fourth day I couldn't handle it. I needed you, I need you Bella. I'm wrong for leaving the first time. I won't ever leave again," he tells me.
"You had sex with her?"
"Yeah,"
"You want me to come home?"
"Please,"
"I need some time to think," I tell him.
"What does that mean?"
"I'm going to the Maldives with my friends and I'll let you know when I get back in a couple of days."
"Can I stay here tonight?"
"I was just about to head to the mall, I don't have clothes here. You can come," I say grabbing my things. I needed bathing suits and dresses, oh and shorts. Justin and I quietly walked down to the elevator in my apartment building. We reached the front of the building and we jumped into Justin's car. The ride was silent. Justin reaches over and takes my hands in his. I let him hold my hand but I didn't look at him. I used my other hand to text in the group chat. This is where my mind was focused not anywhere else. "I missed you," He says trying to get my attention. I look at him and smile. "You didn't miss me?" He asked.
"Don't rush this," I tell him and he nodded. We pulled up to an outlet mall and I get out the car and the first store I go into is Victoria Secret. I needed to update my underwear collection and I needed a bathing suit. Justin grabbed my hand and wrapped his arm around me as we walked into the store. He opens the door and holds it so I can walk in and immediately all eyes were on us. I ignored everyone and went straight to the panty section. "I like these," Justin said picking up some white Lacey thongs. He looked at me and smirked. "Go try them on,"
"Justin that's nasty, you're not supposed to try on underwear especially thongs," I chuckle a little.
"I'll just put these in the bag then. What size- you know what I know exactly what size you wear," he smirked. Lord help me. Justin kept throwing the sexiest panties he could find inside of my bag.
"Justin this is suppose to be for my trip not your pleasure," I hit him playfully.
"Yea but when you come home to me I want to see you in these," he pointed to the bag.
"Yeah if I come home," I smirk and walk to the register. The lady at the register kept her eyes on Justin the whole time she rang the items up. I was annoyed but I remained quiet.
"You're total is &250.35," she smiled at him. I went inside of my bag but before I could open my wallet Justin had his card out handing it over to the lady.
"I can pay for my own stuff," I said lowly.
"Not when you're with me," I just stayed quiet as he grabbed my bag. Justin kisses my cheek and we walk out.
"Where to next?" He asked.
"I need clothes, so Forever 21,"
"Okay come on," he held my hand. Justin and I walked into the Forever 21 and I made Justin sit down this time so he didn't get excited and try to pick out clothes. I grabbed shorts, shirts, and dresses. I headed to the dressing room to try everything on. I came out in my first outfit which was a cropped tank and high waisted denim shorts.
"Turn around," He said. I turned to the back.
"Your ass looks really good in those honey," I rolled my eyes and laughed as I switched back into the dressing room. Outfit number two was a white body con dress for when we go to dinner.
"Can I come on this trip so I can take you out of your outfits," he winked and bit his lip. "Justin!" I laugh. He walked up to me. "I can't help it you're just so fine girl," he grabbed my ass and squeezed it. People were recording and I was getting embarrassed.
"People are watching and recording," I hid my face in his shirt.
"So what, give me a kiss,"
"Justin leave me alone," I say pulling away but he quickly pulled me back and kissed my lips. I blushed and turned away and he slapped my ass as I walked back into the dressing room. I didn't want to try on the other outfits because we were causing too much attention. I grabbed my stuff and we headed to the counter this time I beat Justin to the punch and paid for my own stuff. He smirked and grabbed the bags as I licked my tongue out.
"Ok I see what you did there. Anymore stores you want to go in?"
"No I'm hungry though,"
"What do you want?"
"I. don't know," I said as we got back in the car.
"You love Panera," he said. I immediately lit up. I'm always in the mood for Panera.
"Yes lets go to Panera,"
"Alright babygirl,"
"Justin?"
"Mhm?"
"I missed you," I confessed. He smiled and leaned over to kiss me and I let him.
"I know you did and I love you,"
"I love you too,"
"Coming home?"
"I still don't know yet," I sighed.
"Okay," I could tell he was disappointed but I really needed to think on it.