You first saw me at work
I remember you
You were with that pregnant ladyI thought that was your wife
By the way you were holding her
My fault for assumingI didn't know you went to the same university as me.
I didn't know you were in the same class as me
I didn't know
Because you weren't in that class
Until you saw me at workYou come up to me when I'm alone
Don't think I don't see you
Walking back and forth
Staring at me
I see youI told you to leave me alone
I told you I wasn't interested
I told you I just wanted to focus on school
Why don't you listen?Leave me alone.
You scare me.
But you didn't.
You followed me after my art class.
How did you know I get out at 4:40 that day?
How did you know my car?
How did you know I was going to be alone in the parking lot?
I went towards my car and you blocked it.
I have no where to go.
You held on to my car door
You wouldn't let me close it
I couldn't leave
I was in shock
I was so scaredYou gave me flowers
You told me you saw them and they reminded you of me.
You said you waited 2 hours for me to get out of class.I told you I didn't want them.
I told you to take them back.
But you shoved them towards me.
You were aggressive.
It hurt.You were angry.
Very angry.
I know that look.
You gave me that look.
I thought you were going to hit me
I know you wanted to
When I said No.You kept asking me to be with you.
I told you No.
You asked if we can meet up.
I said No.
No means No.
But you kept asking anyways
You got angrier and angrier
I can see it in your face
Your body languageI was getting ready for the beating
Like I always do.
I was ready.But you ended up hitting the car
And you finally left.I felt a sense of relief.
I ended up crying.
I was shaking.
I'm so useless.How did I let that happen?
I had pepper spray
Why didn't I use it?I reported it to the school.
They didn't do anything.
You were still in my class.
You are lucky.
I filed a restraining order with the police.
Even with that, I don't feel safe.
I'm scared.I don't want to feel this way.
Look at what you did.
I'm scared.
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Self-Reflection
De TodoBasically writing about the people in my life and how I feel. Writing about the stuff in my head and unspoken feelings. I just need to let it out.