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Basically writing about the people in my life and how I feel. Writing about the stuff in my head and unspoken feelings. I just need to let it out.

Thoughts #2

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by SleeplessDreams_x3

by SleeplessDreams_x3

I just want to be held
Forever

To be loved
For once

I'm so tired
Oh so tired

I hate feeling like this
Feeling so worthless
Unloved

I want to be in someone's arms
I want to feel protected

I don't feel safe
I'm always scared
Paranoid

The amount of panic attacks I've been having recently is concerning.
My anxiety has been on an all time high

I haven't been thinking clearly
I haven't been thinking at all

I don't want to be in my mind anymore
All these thoughts
All the painful memories

Take them away from me
Take them away
Please

I'm not happy
I'm not happy at all

I want to be
I try to be

It's so hard

I'm so angry
Angry at myself
Angry at the world

I'm so petty
I do things out of spite
Of anger.

I don't mean to
It just happens

Gosh I'm such a bitch
No wonder no one loves me

Everyone hates me
They have a good reason too
I'm a shitty person

I deserve all the pain I receive
I don't deserve to be happy
I don't.

But I still wish to be held.
Someone hold me.
Forever.