Two Secret Diaries || Hyunin

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"I don't understand Hyunjin anymore. I don't know what's going on with him, one moment he's completly fine and the other he's super cold but only towards me or avoiding me even if he tries not to show it.

This is unfair, I didn't do anything wrong and even if I did, he should at least talk to me about it. I never saw him like that and I'm confused because it is affecting me so much.

Usually when a hyung has a problem I try to distance myself because it has nothing to do with me and I don't want to worry too much. I just wait until it resolves itself.

But with Hyunjin's case, I feel like it's directly linked with me and I can't help how much it affects my mood.

That's why I talked to Felix about it. I didn't want to worry Chan as a leader and I felt Felix would understand and maybe be able to give me some advice. 

And he said he noticed Hyunjin's weird behavior too! So I'm not imagining things! There IS something  going on.

Felix said to me that there must be a reason why Hyunjin is acting like that but it might be because of something I can't even guess.

He said he knew Hyunjin wouldn't be acting so strange out of nowhere. And maybe it has nothing to do with me, or at least not directly.

Felix spoke words of wisdom: you never know what others are struggling with. It comforted me greatly about that matter and pulled away a part of the weight on my shoulders.

But I was still worried so I asked Felix if he had any solution for this situation to come back to what it was before. He said it will maybe resolve with time and if not, I should try speaking to him when he is in his good moments.

I thanked Felix and hugged him tight (which I don't do often but knows he likes it). He's so nice, seriously. Even if he had troubles with speaking at the beginning of his training, he has always been so nice with everybody and so loving.

He's a good guy and a great friend. I wonder how things are for him and Changbin. I kinda suspect something is going on even if nobody speaks about it or more like everybody jokes about it.

Well, I hope it's all good for the both of them."

After speaking with Jeongin between two rehearsals, Felix joins Changbin in the waiting room. They are both a bit awkward around each other but they don't really mind.

And even if it makes Felix feel a bit nervous, he sits right next to Changbin and places his head on his shoulder and wraps his arms around him.

Changbin tries not to freeze himself and tries to hide how smeaty his palms have become. A light blush covers his cheeks but he doesn't acknowledge it.

Felix sees the effect he has on the other but doesn't dare say a word, because the other has the exact same strong effect on him.