We've Grown. (Naruto FanFiction)

Chapter 30

"It's not that I don't love him; It's just that I need to be sure that he is what I want, for the rest of my life." Sarada spoke to her therapist, as she listened to the young woman's confusing feelings. "We graduate in two days, and it's just making me realize how much growing up I have to do, you know?" She nodded in understanding and asked the young woman, "How long have you felt this way?"
Sarada sighed deeply while shaking her head, "Honestly, since the accident."
"I love him, and I am more than grateful for everything he has done for me, but honestly?
I need a break. We need to better ourselves, and get to know ourselves again, before we try and get to know each other."

"You talk about this as something that you want to be temporary. Is that what you want?"
"Definitely! I truly think that him and I are going to end up together, but we can take a break, right? Or is that too much of me to ask from him? We've been through so much, and I don't want to seem ungrateful." She took her glasses off while wrinkles became apparent in her forehead from her deep thought. Sarada's anxiety worsened as her therapist pensively tried to give her an answer.

"From what you've said about him, I don't think that is too much to ask. As long as you realize that the relationship will change.
You two may still be friends; However, you can't expect him to still have his boyfriend tendencies because you will be disappointed, and that will damage the friendship that you both are trying to reconstruct."
Sarada nodded with a sigh leaving my lips.

"Do you think you're ready to let go of that part of him?" That question made Sarada's heart break, as a montage of memories flooded her mind. Tears came to her onyx eyes as she began to remember how happy he made her, and it made her feel guilty.
Truthfully, she wanted to break up with him because she had been feeling very insecure since being attacked, and she knew she had to work on it. Recently she had been treating him less than he deserved, and she tried to fix it, but she couldn't stop the darkness from taking over her.
"I don't think that I am, but I need to be."
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"Hey, Sarada. What did you want to talk about, Sweetie?" Sakura asked while her daughter helped her cook dinner. "Mom, I'm in great need of some advice." Sakura nodded while glancing up into her eyes, "I'm all ears."
With a sigh leaving her lips, Sarada decided to get straight to the point."I think I want to end things with Boruto." Sakura nodded, though she was confused. "Okay. Why?"
"There's just so much going on right now, you know?" She nodded in agreement, while turning the stove off, so she could give Sarada her full attention.

Her dainty hands motioned for her to sit down at the table, as she sat down across from her.
"I just feel that with graduation approaching, that's going to be another drastic change for us. I don't think I can handle it." Her soft hand caressed Sarada's, as tears came to her eyes.
"I love him; I love him so much, but I need a break. There's just so much on my plate. Between my healing, his healing, and our relationship, I barely have time to think anymore. This sounds so selfish, but I need to better myself, before we better each other."
Caring emerald eyes stared into her onyx's ones with concern as she started to cry.

"Sarada, that doesn't sound selfish at all.
You have every right to care about your own health. I know that you may feel like you're abandoning him, but don't feel guilty, Sarada. You need to get the help you need, and work to become a better you before you can be in a well-functioning relationship. Boruto will understand that, and he will give you the space you need to grow. He has a strong support system, and he loves you, Sarada."
Her delicate fingers wiped her tears away, though they continued to fall. "But do you think I'm being too rash? Maybe I'm just over thinking this?"

"It seems to me that you've been thinking about this for a long time." Sarada nodded,
"I have. B-but, he's going to think that I don't love him anymore." She shook her head,
"No he won't, Sweetie, he knows you love him."
Sarada's breath started to shorten as she kept thinking of everything. She knew exactly what she had to do, but the thought of breaking up with her best friend broke her heart. Sakura noticed that she was heaving, and took action before she had an anxiety attack.
"It's okay, Sarada, I'm here." She spoke while getting up from her seat, and hugging her tightly.