(Don't) Go To Sleep

A Plan

I woke up the next morning and it looks like Mum just left me to sleep. My clock read 4am and I groaned. Rolling out of bed I got dressed into black jeans, pretty much the only colour jeans I owned and a camouflage top. There was no point in going back to sleep, once I was awake, there was no way I could just lay in bed and do nothing. My heart ached for Jeff. I made him cry, I couldn't believe what had happened to him. His eerie eyes and black hair. I wasn't just leaving him, no way. I was going to go after him. I didn't care how crazy and desperate I sounded. Grabbing a black bag, I looked around my room and decided only a black hoodie would be any use to me. Next I moved on to the kitchen, I took a knife and about £50 from our holiday savings and stuffed them in the bag too. Slipping my bag converse on, I whispered, 'Sorry Mum, sorry Dad.' A silent tear rolled down my face and I snuck out of the door. Yup, I was definitely going to hell. I had never run away before so I had no idea what to do. There were only three people I'd miss on my little 'rescue mission,' Mum Dad and Alec. He was like a brother to me and it would be unfair if I just left with no explanation. I walked to his street using little alleys behind houses and once I got to Alec's I realized I needed to get to his window. Wasting no time, I jumped over his fence into the back garden. I wheeled a bin over and stood on it, now what? I thought. There were some ivy growing up the side of his house, it was risky but it might just work. I shimmied over to the vines and wrapped one arm and leg around the gutter and gripping the ivy. I pulled my way up to his window, refusing to look down. He had the curtains shut, damn. I knocked quietly on the window a few times. No reply, after knocking again, a pair of eyes peered through the curtains and saw me. My arms were getting tired, he needed to let me in soon. He quickly, disbelievingly opened the curtains and then the window. 'What are you doing?!' he whispered furiously. 'Help me in, please, I'm gonna fall.' I begged. He reached out and grabbed my arm closest to him with both his hands and pulled me through his window. I landed in a heap on the floor and he stood over me, hands on hips. 'Well?' he demanded. 'Look, I'm so sorry but I can't just leave Jeff out there on his own...' I started. 'You have got to be kidding me, I should have seen this coming,' he whisper-yelled. 'I'm sorry but I love him, you imagine if that was someone you loved.'

'I'd see how insane they were and move on.' I scowled at him. 'No you wouldn't.You'd sulk like a little girl.'

'I still wouldn't go after a criminally insane ex-boyfriend,' he retorted. Sighing, I looked down, guiltily. 'I saw him yesterday, he told me he loved me,' I turned my head to one side showing him the thin scab across my neck. 'I told him I loved him and he ran off crying, it broke what was left of my heart.' I said close to tears. At this, Alec relaxed, 'Oh Jane,' he hugged me, 'Why didn't you tell me?' I shook my head. 'I have to go.' This time Alec didn't object, 'I'm sorry, good luck.' I didn't look back as I jumped straight out of his window and landed, I felt a bit like spiderman. Jumping back over the fence I ran straight to the woods. I had to get away from here. Looking back through the trees I made a vow that once I'd saved Jeff, I'd come back home. I walked straight through the trees. I'd have to stay hidden, I wonder where Jeff stayed. I guess I'd just have to go to empty places where a killer would hide. The sun was rising which meant I had to find somewhere to hide. I wouldn't have thought if someone went missing it wouldn't be such a big thing considering all the other current 'issues.' Well off I was on my potential suicide misson looking for a crazy killer with nowhere to live. This was going to be fun.