K.I.R.O.T. (Dagli At Maikling Kwento)

Dagli #7: Trust Issues

Pinipilit kong huwag nang isipin pa ang nangyaring away ng boyfriend ko. He had a fight with my bestfriend's brother just because he saw me kissing him, but it's not true. He's thinking maliciously. He knows that all I want is him.

Nakatingin ako sa kanyang magandang bulto dito sa aking apartment kahit na kanina pa kaming patuloy na nagtatalo. Noah's eyes were dark which makes me nervous.

"You know that I hate when you're with that asshole! You don't even mention that you were with him!" may kataasan ang boses niya.

"I'm sorry," nanlalambing kong tugon.

"I hate this. Kung ayaw mo akong nagagalit at napapaaway ng dahil sa 'yo. Huwag kang magbigay ng rason para pagselosin ako." 

I heard him murmuring violent curses. Wala na sa akin ang paningin niya. Malakas ang tibok ng puso ko. I felt so weak. His fist that I was holding earlier was already away from my reach.

"You know. I hate to say this but...I'm tired...drained."

It's painful and yes, I'm already drained too. But I don't want to give up. I love him.

"I-I'm sorry, please. Hindi ko ginustong halikan niya ako. I was drunk! Hindi ko ginusto iyon. Maniwala ka naman sa akin," I sound desperate as I make him understand my reasoning.

Hindi ko naman talaga ginusto na halikan ako ni Rico. In fact, I slapped him after he did that. I was shocked earlier, dumbfounded when I saw Noah a few meters away from me with his eyes fuming mad.

"Ilang beses na, Tin. Tangina, ano niloloko mo ako? Do you think I would believe you?! For all, I know you're lying to me ever since!"

I'm not lying! Hell, I'm not!

"So, sinungaling na ako ngayon?! Ikaw, bakit ka nandoon?! Because you're with someone!" I accused him. I know this is bad, shit.

"Don't fucking turn this whole thing against me! Wala akong ginagawang masama, o baka talagang niloloko mo ako kaya galit na galit ka sa akin!"

"Oo na! Niloloko na kita. Ginusto ko iyong halik. Ginusto ko iyong nangyari. M-Masaya ka na?! Sige! Doon ka na sa babae mo. Maghiwalay na tayo!" malakas at may halong panginginig ang boses ko.

My tears were falling down my cheeks and I'm breathing harshly. My chest was aching painfully because of what I've said. Damn, iyon ang pagsisingungaling.

"M-Maybe I'm better off without you. This is sickening...." dagdag ko.

"Siguro nga. Magsama kayo, tangina."

Pagkatapos nang huling sambit niya ay tumalikod na siya sa akin.

What I can only see now was his broad shoulders and his large biceps being dragged by his body away from me. Leaving me in my empty room.

At the end of that day, the only thing that was left from me is myself.

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Dedicated to: Jazzywrites188