"I cant help but feel this way about you, you make me fucking crazy."
"I..umm..uh", I stuttered and she crashed her lips onto mine too quickly for me to process.
Autumn Grey is no ordinary girl. She is in a toxic relationship with her abusive boyfri...
The girl, Billie I think, still goes to my school. People come up to her every day asking for pictures or other things and I just can't put my finger on where I know her from. I've been trying to avoid her in classes since she just makes me flustered. And I couldn't talk to Rose about it because Caleb's been wanting me to spend time with him during school and as well as after.
However Caleb isn't at school today so I can finally spend time with my best friend.
I quickly scanned the cafeteria for Rose but was disappointed when I found her sitting next to Sebastian. Great. I began walking slowly towards the table when Rose lifted her head up, her eyes lighting up when she spotted me.
"Autumn!", she shouted as soon as she saw me, "feels like I haven't seen you in forever", she said as she hugged me.
"Yeahhh sorry just been really busy", I lied, knowing Sebastian was sitting right there, "so, since when did you two start hanging out?"
They both glanced at each other but played it off quickly.
"Oh we just started talking a bit here and there, nothing big", Rose said, Sebastian nodding along to her comment.
"Alright", I said shrugging it off.
They carried on with their conversation as i ate my cheese burger, not bothering to enter the debate they were having over who's chemistry answer was correct. Rose then suddenly stopped arguing and turned her attention to someone on the other side of the cafeteria. She stood up and began waving the person over to where we were all sitting.
"Billie meet my best friend Autumn", she said and I choked on my burger, everyone giving me weird looks.
I turned to face her and gave her a small smile followed with a shy "Hey". I cant help it, she looks so intimidating. And I wasn't expecting Rose to befriend the new girl, she never does that.
"Can I sit?", she asked and i nodded for her to sit down.
"Yo Billie I was thinking, what do you say you come to the party I'm throwing tomorrow night at my house?", Sebastian spoke up.
"Hell yeah sounds cool", she said giving him a fist bump.
"And you Autumn? You want to come too?"
"Sure I guess", I said not looking up from my food.
Sebastian then smiled to all of us and went off to join his friends at another table. He can be nice sometimes, but of course I'll never admit that to him because he's too much of a dip shit most of the time.
"Shit I forgot to do my chemistry homework, I'm still not used to school Haha. I'll see you guys later, bye Autumn", she said giving me a smile which I returned with a small wave.
As soon as she left I could almost feel Rose burning holes into my head. She then flicked my cheek which caused me to look up at her and she didnt look impressed.
"What did I do now?", I asked.
"Dude you didn't say a word to her, are you crazy? All people have been wanting to do is meet her and when you get the opportunity to you don't do anything", she said.
"Is she important or something? I dont get the big deal", as soon as I said this her mouth dropped fully open in disbelief.
"Dude...that's Billie fucking Eilish. The one who sang ocean eyes"
Just then everything started falling into place and her face made so much sense to me. I fuck with ocean eyes so much, how the hell could I have been so stupid, maybe it has something to do with me just listening to the music rather than looking at the person who sings them.
"Fuck", I whispered, "why is she even here? How does a singer just end up in a school?"
"She said she wanted to take a break from singing for a while and she wanted to experience being a normal teenager since she was homeschooled ever since she was young. I get it, I'd wanna socialise and meet new friends too", explained Rose.
I nodded in acknowledgement. Duuuudeee I'm so stupid.
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I didn't see Billie for the rest of the day yesterday which was a relief, but I would have to deal with seeing her tonight at Seb's party which I wasn't ready for. Hopefully there will be no interaction between us. I dont fancy her or anything, it's just she seems like the type that would fuck me up if I said something wrong, so I'm kinda scared of her. She's also a billion times more pretty than me and she's way more talented. Ugh.
I was on my way to my next class when I heard Caleb calling me from down the hall so I stopped and turned to wait for him. He looked angry again for some reason and my mind began racing to all the possible things I could have done lately.
"Why the fuck was you talking to Sebastian? I thought i taught you better", he said angrily.
"He just asked if I was coming to the party tonight", I tried to defend myself.
"I dont care, he can ask me, not you", he said as he came closer and grabbed my wrist, holding it tight. I whimpered a bit but didnt let him know it hurt.
"You're coming with me to the party tonight so I can make a good impression, but you're not speaking to anyone without my permission, and if I'm not with you, you have to be with Rose. Is that clear?", he asked.
When I didnt answer and kept my head down, he tightened his grip on my wrist and a small tear managed to escape my eye.
"Look at me. I asked is that fucking clear?", he whisper shouted.
I lifted my head to meet his eyes, but I stiffened as I locked eyes with Billie who was standing in the corner of the hallway, observing the situation with intent and anger.
"Yes, it's clear, I'm sorry", I whispered. And with that he let go of my wrist and stormed past me, leaving me standing in the middle of the hallway, alone and hurt. Tears began slowly streaming down my face as I rubbed my arm from the pain I endured. I could see through my teary eyes that Billie had begun walking in my direction. She shouldn't have seen any of that.
To avoid any interactions I turned and ran in the other direction away from her, and locked the main door to the nearest bathroom I could find. I could hear her soft footsteps as she walked past the girls bathroom, and was relieved when silence had finally filled the atmosphere. All I could hear was my soft sobs.
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I didn't go to my last class that day, but instead went home to relax before the night I was about to have with my fucked up boyfriend.
When it was time to leave, I took one last look in the mirror and observed my appearance. I looked decent tonight, with my short grey dress that came almost half way down my thigh fitting my figure nicely, paired with some white converse and a flannel shirt around my waist to top it off.
"Let's get this over with", I said to myself as I left.
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