My Book of Poems

MBP: No Title

I'm just a simple girl who's dreaming
To meet a lot of people, to be friends with
Smiles so bright to everyone I'll see
Laugh out loud to something that's crazy.

I'm quite shy to strangers
For short an introvert
I don't care on what others might think of me
I'm just being myself, I'm just being me
But that doesn't mean I don't want to have someone with me
Someone I can talk with, someone I can share something
Everyone feels the same way
To meet a friend with same interest.

I met a lot but it didn't last
They can't seem to remember me
I become invisible and unworthy
No chance for them to recognize me
I don't know, I don't want to blame them.

I lost my confidence, I lost my strength
I start to wander around
Ask for what I lack, ask for what I'm not
But look at me now
I'm in the middle of nowhere
No one is here I can depend
No one is here to help me.

I thought they'll befriend me for being me
But reality slaps me so hard
As I've realize that they've just need me
They've use me, they've took advantage of the innocent me
Leave me then as if nothing happens
Leave me then as if they don't care.

I thought they're real
I thought they've accepted me
But that's not the case
I've woken up from that dream
And the reality that awaits me is a nightmare
A nightmare that will change me
A nightmare that will sober me up from the illusion I thought was real
I don't need any of them
Let's be real here
They don't deserve me
I don't deserve them.