After All • Calum Hood (Sequel to ISTTY)

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—Another piña colada? -I ask Sierra while seeing her arrive with another drink on her hand-

—Yup -she giggles-

—You'll end up drunk -Ashton adds amusingly-

—That might be the idea -she chuckles-

—That right there it's the attitude! -I joking, distant bumps with her-

—I'm waaaay too happy -Sierra squeals and sips some more of her drink-

—Why? -Luke asks her with a smile on his face-

—Because! Life's too short and too perfect not to be happy

The music shuffled to Fleetwood Mac, and even though they're good, wasn't a good fit for the mood, I grab my phone and go change the music -since my phone's the one providing them- and play Tequila by Dan + Shay, all of us love that song right now

—I love that song! -Ashton adds excitedly- turn it up, louder!

—Me too -I giggle-

It seems like the four of us loved it so bad, we were singing along on the top of our lungs, enjoying life. I grab Ashton's phone and without letting him know I start filming a video of the four of us singing out light

—I'm going to AirDrop me this video, I'll send it to Mad -I smile looking down at Ashton's phone once I stopped filming-

—Okaaay -Ashton says while sipping on his beer-

I receive the video and add it to my girlfriend's and I conversation, waiting for it to be sent, I type down on my phone «I guess we have different types of entertainment» I lock it and in a few minutes I receive an answer, I smile down at the screen, I'm supposed to be focused on the moment and not the phone, but I wish Madeleine could be here enjoying the moment with us as well so I couldn't help it. «Love the song Tequila, love all of you as well—I miss you all so freaking bad! I need to see you again»

—Madeleine says she loves you and miss you guys -I say out loud to Luke, Sierra and Ashton-

We aren't sure of Michael's location, he probably is on the centre of the city looking for something game play related

—And I love her! -Luke pouts- I need Wyatt to be grown up already so that Mad and him can come with us

—Mad's the best -Sierra smiles- I adore her

—I also want Wyatt to already grow up but at the same time I feel like he's growing up way too fast -I say- maybe the next time that I see him he'll be so developed in certain ways and nostalgia invades my body because a I'm not there to see it

—Tell Madeleine I love her so much that if you two ever break up I'll be here to marry her -Ashton says jokingly, I roll my eyes and playfully hit his arm-

—Fuck off, Ashton

—Ashton! -Sierra exclaims- how can you think they're going to break up? Those two really love each other, I think once they die their ashes will be thrown away together -she giggles, her eyes were a little bit crinkled due to alcohol's effect-

—Luke, take her drink away from her, the alcohol on her system isn't allowing her to understand jokes anymore -Ashton says-

—Hey! -the middle finger of Sierra is now up towards Ashton-

—Let's dive into the pool -I suggest-

We were having fun and that's undeniable but I still can't stop feeling lonely, I genuinely need Madeleine and Wyatt beside me

—What's wrong, mate? -Ashton asks me, I was staring blankly-

—I miss my family -I mutter-

—Oh, man -he pats my back- I don't even know what to tell you, I know how close you are to your fam since you had Wyatt, I can only hope that time passes by quickly so you can see them already and I also want you to enjoy the moment, we're living the dream

—I know, I'm enjoying it, it's just not the same without them... Once you've a family of your own, the one you created, dreams aren't complete if they're not beside you living them with you -I shrug-

—Did you plan a date already to bring them along?

—I want it to be in Paris

—Romantic -he says with an amusing expression, making me chuckle-

—It's not that -I defend myself- Madeleine has always wanted to meet France, I guess Paris is the best option, there's the Louvre Museum, The Arc of the Triumph, the Eiffel Tower

—It's the city of love, you gotta take your love to the city of love and propose your love

—You're crazy -I laugh- I haven't thought of proposing yet

—Yet

Luke & Sierra were a little bit far from us, taking pictures and sharing love—every single one of us needs its space and we know how to respect it

—Yet -I repeat- if I do it, it'll be on the right moment, not because someone's hinting me to propose her

—You're saying that because of me? Jackass -he rolls his eyes in a amusing way, I shake my head and laugh-

—No, I say it because of moments when Ariana told me I should propose her, we were all together outside Sydney, remember?

—Ohh, yeah. I wouldn't like to be told what to do either

—I think no one likes -I shrug-

~

I came back to the hotel room after eating, Ashton, Michael, Sierra and Luke would go out tonight for dinner and to wander around the city, maybe end up in some club but I wasn't in the mood for any of that, I'm really tired and my emotions are low, I wanted a moment for myself. After taking a shower I throw myself on the mattress, the sheets and the pillows were cold thanks to the air conditioner—I unlock my phone and start to go through my gallery, there were a couple of videos filmed by Mad, I was entering the kitchen looking for something to eat whilst she was narrating the whole thing «Here we can see a nocturne animal seeking its prey...» I couldn't help but laugh at my girlfriend's silliness. I kept going up and found a photo of Madeleine and I... doing it, I can't even remember why we took that picture, our faces weren't shown, it was a doggy style moment and that's all that could be seen, I swiped away trying not to analyse it way too much otherwise, I'd find myself missing her way more, plus, I didn't had enough energies to please myself while thinking about her.

After getting bored of looking at my photos -which was boring except for Madeleine & Wyatt's photos and videos- I set my phone aside and grab the menu that was resting on the nightstand—I know I ate a little ago but the cravings of sweets are killing me. As soon as I read the word ice cream I knew what I was going for, I grab the phone beside me to call for room service and after ordering my ice cream, I grab my phone and play The Maine, a band that I really love. I lazily get up and put on a shirt along with a grey jogger, I couldn't receive the dessert naked.

After a while of thinking, loneliness came, I feel like it is consuming me, once you get used to a home life, rockstar life doesn't make you feel twice as good as your family does.