Without You I'm A Lost Boy

Mikey

Mikey Darling,

I have to say first off that there is nothing you could do. I am a lost cause and I want this. I have so many good memories of you, and your smile. I love you so much, but please don't dwell on me, I am just a small part of your huge journey and you destined for greatness. I don't want you to be depressed and shut out the world like you do when you are upset, I want you to remember my smile and I want you pick up that guitar and write beautiful songs, I want you to make music because that's when you are the happiest, I want you to sign to a record label and become famous, I want the world to know the name of my Aussie men who are dedicated to making music and are incredibly talented. Take care of yourself, and call your mom and tell her you love her EVERYDAY! She needs to know how much her amazing son loves her and that you are always thinking of her. I need you to know that my depression is a stronger fighter than I am, and no matter what happened in my life I would have always been broken, its better that I go now before we got too far in the relationship and you proposed and I said yes, and before we got married and had a family that I would've never felt like I deserved. I tried so hard for so long to be okay, and I hid the cuts from you so well and I'm sorry I never told you all of the struggles I was going through, you deserved to know and now that its too late you do know. I started cutting before I met you and I tried to stop, but the sadness overwhelmed me. I'm so sorry Mike, I love you but the way I feel inside hurts too much. I have tried to get passed this but I can't, I tried to stay strong for you, you mean the world to me, but everything comes to an end and I'm sure in time you'll forget me. Please live your life as normal for me. Fall in love with some beautiful woman and give her the world, always tell her that she is beautiful and you love her, because the way you say those words was the only light in my life. I love you Michael Gordon Clifford.

Goodbye baby.